♥Evonne.O

Thursday, July 31, 2008Y

blogged since ie couldnt sleep . blogged since im worried. blogged since ie am sad. blogged since im emo. too many reasons for me to blog this time round. baby never replied my sms or pick up my calls since ie last talked to him at about 11+pm. ie guess he's sleeping soundly by. he aint feeling well. might be due to exams stress. hopefully it is exams stress. baby's suffering from lose of appetite. really might be due to exams . baby darling. pls pls pls take good care of urself. ue always asked me to do so. and im now asking ue to do it too. im afraid to see ur body getting weaker by day. ie donte wish to listen to ue saying ue are having gastrics or wadsoever cause im worried. even when ue donte tell me anything. im still worried n afraid ue donte eat or ue are suffering from any pain any where. got my hair cut done today. much love to my new hair cut. all split ends have been trimmed off . my new long hair will come soon . very very soon . how much longer can ie survive being a wonderwoman. ie wante to be a superwoman for baby. ie wante him to be proud of me instead of feeling that im a burden to him. ie wante baby to hold my hands and tell the whole world he loves me. ie wante baby to tell everyone he wantes no one except for me. ie wante to recieve bouquets of flowers from baby ie wante to listen baby saying he loves me more each day. ie wante to hug baby n never let him go. ie will tell the whole world he's going to be my last baby . ie will tell the whole world ie wante to marry baby n stay with him forever. ie will hug baby tight and never ever let anything to upset our relationship. ie will be a super wonderwoman for baby cause ie noe he need someone strong to support him. ie will do lots and lots of things to make baby feel proud of me. ie will hold baby's hands and tell the whole world i love him .ie will spring surprises for baby . ie will every now and then think of ways to keep baby's health in very very good condition. ie will do all ie can to make baby feel happy when he's with me every single minute. baby, this is how much ie love you. and this is just one part of wad ie'll do for you in exchange to be together with ue forever. ie noe ue will not promise me anything before you get a stable job. ie will wait. ie really will wait. TRUST ME ! ie really wante you to be my last baby, last romance, last date, first and last husband (= the love ie have for u will be indescibable. if one fine day im to leave this world before you do, pls remember that ie will always still love you and no matter wad. ie hope you will find someone else to replace my place. maybe ue guys will think that im thinking far too long le. but im damn serious when ie say ie wante to marry baby and have his kids. im all ready now. just WAITING for the day to arrive. waiting for the day baby propose to me =X waiting for that day baby says that he wante to have his own kids waiting for that day that baby wante to step on the red carpet with me.im going to wait no matter wad. ie just wante to be with you forever and ever.

last but not least,
BABY, I REALL LOVE YOU <3333
XOXOXOXO

3:20 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, July 30, 2008Y

once again , ie got baby angry. so sorry baby. ie shouldnt have kept sms-ing ue while ue are studying. hopefully ue will be able to get everything into ur brain n pass ur exams with flying colours this thursday. im really off to sleep le. nites. MISSES ~

12:37 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

whye am ie so stupid ? once again , ie got baby angry . sorry baby . ie didnt mean to be so sticky ya. SORRY . just hope that ue will feel better tml. ie miss you . )=

well . ie did irritating things to make baby angry. im just this stupid ba. ie guess ie really need something to knock me hard before ie do something else stupid to irritate baby again. im just this dependent on baby cause ie always thought that he will be there for me no matter wad happens. but maybe ie talked to him at the wrong time. hopefully ue will be able to get ur facts into ur brain and not fail ur exam this thursday. good luck (=

12:35 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, July 28, 2008Y

blogging time (:celebrated baby's birthday twice for him. well . the first celebration was an unplanned one. so wasnt very well done. but hope baby still like it ya.baby, ue are the first guy ie ever went to this extend to celebrate his birthday.ie wante ue to be the last n spend more birthdays with ue (: and ie hope ie will recieve surprises from ue too ((:well , all different clan of ppl gave different pressies. ie was given the biggest present of all . KENA THROW INTO POOL for no reason =( hahas. but well . ie enjoyed it anyway ((: okays. not gg to update le. siianned . will update about ystd's celebration soon ((: BABY is always loved <33

1:11 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, July 18, 2008Y

hmms .just ended a phone call with cousin just now .was talking about my niece de issues . im very worried for her. its not that im helping my niece or my cousin . just that wad both of them say makes sense .& all the solutions ie can think of is all not workable . cause all will end up with one same situation only ... this makes me feel very bad ! im worried for her. she might not be able to take the blow if she noes the truth. i've been on the phone with my cousin for 2 hours plus. we've talked of millions of different ways. none will come out with a good result.

haiishh .she is the niece who ie dote on most among all . she has been with me since she was born. we played together , grew up tgt . did alot of silly things together before. ie miss it so much ! gal , ah yi just wanna let ue noe something. no matter wad i will forever be here for ue cause among all the niece n nephews ie have , ue are the closest to me. since young till now, we never ever quarrel before ! sumpa ! never . even if there is, its was young time quarrels. all those playtimes , shopping days. ah yi still wanna spend more days like this with ue. ie donte wanna lose ue at such a time.

okays. it might sound so CHILDISH to ue guys. but the truth is the truth. she might leave this world anytime anywhere. she's my closest darling . WE HAVE SPENT 16 YEARS TGT . 16 YEARS is NOT SHORT . we have built up alot alot alot alot of MEMORIES le . she's the closest dearest to me. NOT EVEN MY ELDER SISTER is this close with me ya. so ie really cant bear to see her gg through so much but ie cant help .... sorry gal. ah yi didnt wante this . but all ie can do is provide ue with moral support n maybe some financial support ya.

5:43 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, July 17, 2008Y

okays. today not much of a mood to blog actually. just came to blog for the sake of blogging ya. donte noe wad happened to darling . sms in a very not good manner . well , im alright with it . ie believe he will be alright tml morning. might be some problems with his studies . ie should be more understanding instead of unreasonable. dearest darling , im sorry if ie did anything wrong .hope ue will be reading this post.is there anyway except for words to show how sorry i'm ? can ue sense that im afraid to lose ue everytime ie hug ue so tightly ? yes, ue gave me a very big sense of security, but on the other hand , ue oso am showing the side that ue will leave me anytime. darling, tears flowed down for ue uncontrollably. iie donte know whye. when ie msn ue and ue didnte reply, im afraid. ie might sms ue like just other normal days. but can ue sense the sense of sadness brought along this time round ? darling , since the moment ue bought the rings , ie knew ue are someone ie can rely on for a lifetime. things ue said n ue planned made me feel very secure with ue. even my mummy aint saying anything when she saw the name in the ring. this shows that she's allowing it bahhs .first time when ie indirectly tell her im attached , she's not saying things like "cannot. ue need to break up immediately" this goes to shows that she is ready to accept ue. darling , ie just wanted to say no matter is she gg to accept ue anot , i will still be with ue till the end of the journey

donte really noe wad gotten over me today. ie just noe that ie donte wante to lose darling so easily over some silly n stupid things. its been such a long time since ie blogg-ed so long le. if ue really can sense it, ue should be able to see how much ue mean to me. from the moment we celebrated our first month onwards , ue have become the gravity of my life. ever wondered whye im so quiet on the flyer ? im actually thinking about the past one month we have been tgt . ie reflected , saw the bad n good things. recalled the ups n downs. ie really felt like crying that day. but ie told myself im not gg to cause it was our big day. like wad ue have told me before, r/s is filled with ups n downs. ie m not gg to be pulled back by those downs but instead pushed by those . ie noe ie still have many more months to spend with ue. but ie just feel like saying alot of things now. ie really really love you alot till the extend that ie can give up my life. if this moment god is giving me a choice between ue n me to carry one in life , ie would choose ue. ie wante ue to replace me to see the beautiful things on earth .ie rather stand silently at one corner and look at ur smile everyday. the way ue smile really makes me feel very touched . it was that smile which makes me fell in love with ue .ie would love to see the smile every single day.

ue might be wondering whye my post is only in one shade of colour . because ie cant be colourful when ue are down. ue control my emotions. when ue are happy , ie will automatically be happy. ue are the first guy whom ie wanna show to the whole world how much ie love ue & how much ie cant lose ue. tears just comes down by itself without me asking them to . ie really cant afford to lose ue. really , if im to choose between ue or me to carry on with life, my decison will be ue.

Labels: specially for darling dearest

1:38 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, July 16, 2008Y

Fruitful Trip to WISMA with DARLING honestly speaking. ie didnte realise its been a month le. but well , im really happy to noe that we are still tgt even after a month. ie sincerely hope we have many many more months to go on tgt . cause ie donte wanna lose ue. well well well .im being emotional again . hmms. im working full shift tml. & look at the time now. ie still cant sleep yet. im missing darling like nobody's business. darling gg to wake up in another hour or so. and he's gg to call me at 0800 . guess ie should go and catch some sleep . if not tml ie might die . HAHAs ((=

4:54 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, July 15, 2008Y

wee ~ im finally backk to blogging ((: celebrated first month with darling in advance last sunday. although its just a few hours outing, but ie feel that its much more better than anything le ((:abt 1plus went to TM Baleno collect some stocks to bring over to PWP lohhs. after that met darling at 4plus. WEE ! he brought me to Singapore Flyer ((: hahas
thanks darling <33after flyer went over to MS kai kai awhile before gg to meet leo n sabbie ((: went to SAKAE sushi for dinner . wee ((: so long never eat liaos . hai shi darling zui hao. darling. thanks for giving in to my childish-ness . ie noe sometimes ie do the wrong things. but hopefully ue can see the change in me ((: muacks ! HAPPY FIRST MONTH ((: -counting down to ur birthday .... 11 more days ((: -

1:28 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, July 01, 2008Y

geez . backk to blogging. just came back from darling dearest home .had dinner at his house. well. his mum's cooking still alright lohhs. hahas. not bad ((:ermm ...hmms... lots of thoughts just randomly came into my brain. whye am ie being so irritating ? whye ? perhaps im too afraid to lose him. well. that might be just the case. wahh .... my last finger still nt okay lohhs. im still on medication. plus. went to ENT checkup the other day. FKING made me wait for like an hour den see so fast .... WTF lahhs... hmms hmms .... darling dearest. ie really will hold ue tight tight n never let ue go .im AFRAID of losing ue. donte know whye. for so many boyfs , ue are the only one so far ie can sit down n talk with even after a fight. somemore we donte show that we are fighting. thats something ie really like. but darling. sometimes the way ue react scared me alot. sometime when ue keep to urself n not replying me at all , im really worried that something had happened or wadsoever. ie just am afraid. ie think ue are someone really worth my heart n soul . ie never once ever regret for choosing ue. thanks for being mine. i love you ((:

11:22 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。