♥Evonne.O

Friday, February 29, 2008Y

backk to blogging .
just finished eating instant noodles again .
LOLs .
a slow way of killing urself .

ie was chatting on msn till halfway .
denn ie kiap in between two persons .
WTH .
both my frens , den ie hard to decide .
arghhh ....
never mind .
ie still managed to settle it in the end .

headache .
tml gg POOL , gg GIANT .
WTH
HEADACHE lahhs !
ie might as well tear myself into half .
haiish .

went to watch jumper with kor kor just now .
ie wished ie was like them .
jump here jump there .
den go overseas no need money , no need passport .
most imptly ,
can enjoy !
cause ue can be at different areas doing alot of things .
can even rob the back ,
the bank oso donte know who do de .
can donte work ,
still got money to enjoy life (:

here onwards would like to dedicate to MELVIN ,
donte be too sad ,
donte overwork urself ,
must get plenty of rest ,
den ue will have enough energy to take care of ur mum .
donte be too sad .
feel free to look for me to chat .
ie will always be a listening ear [applies to all].

11:25 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, February 28, 2008Y

went to meet up with greg kor kor .
back from there ,
bought instant noodles home & cook-ed .

greg kor kor ,
ue donte look nerdy lahhs .
ur hair suits ur specs alot (:
& ue look great the way ue are .
donte go cut botak & put 9 dots lahhs . (:

hmms .
finish eating my instant noodles le .
now plain chattin with peeps on MSN .
LMAO .
guess my kor kor still pressing that dumb facebook game .
he press-ed for more than 400 times ystd night .
while chatting with me on phone !
he multi-tasked . (:
my arm de blue black still around .
& its not getting any better ):
how ie wished ie didnt went for the blood test !
arghhh !!!!

people like to talk about LOVE issues on blogs nowadays .
michelle came to me on msn to claim copyright from me .
wth .
funny crappo . (:
budden it seems quite funny .
im alone here ,
sometimes sitting alone ,
see-ing couples walking around .
denn thinking about my past relationships .
[whye m ie so EMO suddenly ?]

guess ie shall stop here for the day .

12:00 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, February 27, 2008Y

back to do a second post .
seriously ,
recently my blog have double posting for everyday .
its seems like im really bored . ):

okays .
slept till 1 pm today .
yeahs , ie noe , im a pig .
budd no choiice .
ie slept late yesterday (:
was chatting happily on msn ,
trying to solve my msn messenger de problems ,
chatting via web messenger was never good .
super lagg !

after the blood test ystd ,
my arm the blue black was even worse .
SOBS !
painful can ?
ie make sure im never going back there to do a blood test anymore .
its so painful !

just came back from dinner .
the LAKSA just sucks !
ie swear i'll never eat it again !
just sucks lahhs .
ie jmiss the laksa at GIANT so much !
wished that ie m still working there !
opps ! ):

6:20 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

how to noe whether ue are really in love with someone ,
ask urself the following questions .
1)will ue mind abt his/her past ?
2)will ue mind abt wadd he/her did before ?
3)will ue mind abt his/her's family background ?
4)will ue be willing to tolerate with his/her nonsense ?
5)will ue be willing to stay by him/her no matter wad happens ?
6)will he/she be the one walking down the red carpet with ue ?
7)will ue be willing to give up everything inclusive of ur life for him/her ?
8)are ue willing to be there for him/her no matter rain or shine ?
9)are ue gonna be there when he/she is ill ?
10)will ue forsake him/her when they are dying ?
11)will ue go for others just because ue are sick & tired of him/her ?
if ue got a "yes" for questions 1 to 9 , a "no' for questions 10 & 11 ,
denn ue are really in love with someone .

im starting to wonder .
will the next guy ie am going to have mind about my past ?
will the next guy forsake me for some others ? [just like the others who did]
will ie be like the past ,standing alone at one corner , crying ?
will ie , choose to leave someone whom ie really love just because of my past ?
ie will , most probably .
cause ie donte wante to make the guy ie really like to suffer .
people will gossip of my past .
if ie really like him ,
ie wonte wante him to go through all these .
its going to be unfair to him . ):

ermm .
the dream ie had last night was indeed weird .
ie dreamt tat anthony together with some others did something bad ,
& they were caught .
so ie promised to wait for him ,
no matter how long his sentence is going to be .
im seriously not joking abt the dream .
im not cursing anybody too .
just jotting down my lame dream .
it wonte come true anyway .
anthony's not that sort of guy who will go round doing bad things .
ie have confidence in him even though its over between the two of us . (:

just finish my bottle of bird nest .
so niceeeee !
oh ya ,
sayang's back to singapore .
finally .
& as promised ,
he got me a doraemon .
budden he donte wante to tell me is it a soft toy or wadd .
baddiie him .
budden ie feel like meeting him to get my presents tom (:
it all depends on whether he wantes anot , & ie can wake up anot . (;

wadd really inspired me to blog about the first two para was my sis .
her boyf & her can quarrel all day long ,
& ie donte know wad caused them to be together for so long .
ie guess in a long term relationship ,
its trust , giving in to each other & caring for each other which pulls couple together .
however , ie see none in both of them .
so ie actually blog-ed abt it .
hopefully the two of them will come by this chance ,
& read this post .
ask urseleves the 11 questions posted above .
if ue all cannot get the perfect answers ,
denn ue guys just aint suit for each other .
carrying on is just a waste of time .
uber waste of each other's youth too .
come on ,
ue guys are still young ,
pointless sticking to each other just because the relationship have been there for more than a year .
if its because of this stupid reason ,
all the more a breakup is needed .
think over it (:

4:45 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, February 26, 2008Y

its just not my day today .
EZ LINK card was being confiscated .
went for medical checkup .
end up donte know tat doc qualify anot .
do blood test tat time .
donte know how he poke the fucking needle .
my arm blue-black-ed right after he take out the needle .
WTF !

many after reading my post last night .
was tell me .
ue still got frens .
budden do ue all understand the pain .
the pain of ppl not visitng ue ?
when ue are already freaking lying on the hospital bed .
& throughout the whole stay .
no one came to visit ue .
even those who self-proclaimed to be my BFFs
within those who ie know .
ie guess no one gone through wad ie gone through .
only when ue all been through wadd ie have ,
denn ue all will understand how it feels !

my arm is so freaking pain now .
cannot let it down straight .
can only bend it .
even got difficulty in typing .
got to learn from L [death note] .
he type in such a cute manner luhs ~
went to watch L Change The World ,
widd harun, liang & yee .
the all time favourite is there !
wee ~ [opps.]
its worth watching .
the movie was great !

ie had a funny dream last night .
ie dreamt of anthony luhs ~
there's others too [of course] ,
but the main lead was him .
donte know whye dreamt of him oso .
budden in the dream ,
ie promised to wait for him .
& he said he will come back .
wth .
ie noe dream only .
wonte come true de .
plus ,
dream always opp . of reality .
never mind .
ie shall not hold on anymore hope for him . (:

its been such a long time since ie used green ehhs ?
luhs ~~~
ie seriously am lack of sleep .
slept at 5 am ystd .
denn woke up at 10 am .
super liaos lahh .
everyday oso like this .
continue & ie will die faster ! (:

Labels: ie wante back my EZ LINK CARD

8:26 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

GIVE ME SOME BREATHING SPACE PLEASE !

ie seriously need some breathing space .
time & again ppl mistook my intentions .
time & again ppl feel that its always my fault .
have ie not been understand enough ?
have ie not been sensible enough ?
have ie not been caring enough ?
have ie not been obdient enough ?

ue all claimed that ue all understand me .
WTF .
den cant ue all see that everything im doing nw ,
its all to punish myself for dashing ur hopes .
only by destroying myself .
den ie will feel better for dashing ur hopes .
ue all used to say tat ue donte give me pressure .
but did ue all noe tat by telling me all these ,
the pressure which hides beneath is even bigger ?
the pressure which ue all show beneath is so huge .
ie kept telling myself not to dash ur hopes .
budden ie didnt wante to fail my maths .
ie really did put in effort to practise my maths .
donte tell me ue all cant see .!

by making me kneel down infront of all the gods donte do anything .
ie will only know that its my fault ,
denn continue to destroy myself .
ie have faced up to reality .
if im fated to die .
ie will .
ie guess history 's repeating soon .
ie cant take the huge amount of stress .
the hidden amount of pressure everyone's giving me .
ue all claim tat ue all never .
but let me tell ue all .
the hidden amount of pressure its so huge .
huge enough to kill me N times .

ie donte noe which way of explaining will be the best way .
most probably remaing silent & nt explain will be the best .
tats wad ie did just now .
kept silent from the moment MAMA[god-mum] scold me .
all the way till ie reach home .
ie still didnt talk to my mum .
ie feel so tired of explaining .
ie just wante to have a good rest .
maybe a sleep where ie will never wake up will be good .
it will give me ample of rest .
& the peace ie need .
im so sick & tired of explaning .
crying when ppl accuse me .

ie kneel-ed infront of the god just now .
ie was so disappointed .
ie kept asking .
whye must it be me .
whye must ie undertake such huge pressure ?
whye is it that ie m destined to go through more things than others ?
ie once tot my PAPA[god-father] knew me .
WTF .
ie was wrong in my judgement .
adults will forever side with adults .
adults will forever NOT understand us !
they just pretend to understand us .
PAPA ,
im so disappointed can .
ie tot ue would understand how ie feel .
ie tot ue would help me .
ie tot ue would pull me out of this sadness .
BUT ue didnt !
im so sad !
ie just donte understand whye .

if im given a chance ,
ie would choose to be back @ august 2007 .
ie wouldnt have made that call which saved me .
ie wouldnt have said sorry for all those things .
ie should have just slept after the incident .
den the next day ,
evonne ong will not be around anymore .
tats the ultimate aim of everyone .
they feel that ie am irritating .
ie admit ie am at times .
but do ue all understand whye ?
arghh .
nvm .
ue all wonte take the effort to understand anyway .
ie am just wasting my breathe explaining .
so ie shall let everything go .
the past is the past .
my time will be up when its suppose to .
ie just hope it will be faster .
donte let me carry on life anymore please .
im sick & tired !

to : frens who really cared .
thnx for caring .
but ie donte deserve it anymore .
ie made up my mind to give up .
ie will continue with my plans .
ie will do everything ie wante .
before ie leave this world .
ie may sound ridiculous .
but im am seriously not joking anymore .
if ie changed for the worse ,
sorry .

4:24 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, February 25, 2008Y

PEACE NEED-ED!

please give me some peace .
ie wante to be alone for the time being .
just let me enjoy my current life .
ie wante to sort out my personal stuffs .
& make a finaly decision .

parent nowadays are super duber unreasonable luhs ~
donte wanna try to understand their kids ,
den go tie them even tighter .
never use logic to think .
when ue hold a bird too tightly in ur hand ,
it WILL die of suffocation .
they WILL never understand this logic .
cause they feel that how their parents treat them ,
will be the best way to treat their own children .
WTH !
get a life can .
we are not living in the 18 or 19th century le .
ue all got to uunderstand tat ,
children nowadays aint like the past!

10:40 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, February 24, 2008Y

back from MR QIXIANG's BBQ.
ate nth much .
only eat one & half pack of sambal sotong , & one chicken wing ):
afternoon met up with yee at 2 .
met vic @ 330 .
walked through the connector to pasir ris .
took one whole fucking hour to reach there .
caused we went to bought a cake for him .
hope-d he really like wad we bought .
caused we really abit last minute de .
sorry (:

hmms .
was being scolded by dad .
okays ,
ie admit ie am at wrong .
but can he like fucking find out wad's the reason for me being late ?
donte shout at me for nothing .
ie hate ppl shouting at me for nothing .
caused even though its my fault .
ie oso donte like people to shout at me .
ue all ask me not to shout .
den donte shout at me!
fucking irritated .
just plain wondering again .
whye didnt ie die that time ?
whye ???!!!
whye must ie have such parents . ):

evonne's worn out .
really worn out .
im already very upset & stressed tat ie dashed so many ppl's hope .
can ue all just fucking give me a break ?
ie am really very very tired !
ie donte wante to carry on moving le .
all my smiles on my face is so fake .
thats not the old me ..
ie wante back the old me .
the old me who can be care-free .
who can be as childish as some other kids .
who can be doted on like any parents would dote on their child .
my wish is very simple .
whye cant it be granted !!!

wonder how long more can ie tahan .
ie really am super worn out .
just feel like sleeping & never be awake anymore ...
that might be the best way for me to get enough rest .
just hope that my grandma will come & fetch me soonner .
donte leave me alone in this scary world anymore .
ue have left me for nearly two years .
& its long enough .
ue have been free long enough .
donte leave me here anymore .
please .
come & take me away with ah gong & ah gu .
ie wante to be back with ue all .
ie donte wante to face this scary world alone .
its so so so so scary .
& i m super afraid .
so please .
come & take me with ue guys .
donte be so selfish & leave me here anymore ):

6:10 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, February 23, 2008Y

its such a longg day !

okay yuhs ~
was supposed to meet yee @ 1245.
ended up met her only @ abt 1250.
im late lo .
first time ever ?
nahs . (:

met up with chew moi following .
was actually waiting for the birthday boy de .
den very hungry .
so called b'dae boy to go KFC find us .
ate @ KFC .
toopid b'day boy came late.
den met up with vernon late .
kena "bird" by vernon lorrs ):

went to MS de K BOX after tat .
sang my heart & mind out .
but the total bill came up to like ...
$84 bucks ++ ?
so EX luhs ~
siianned diaos .
but it was worth the money .
we started singing from about 3 bahh .
sang for about 3 plus hours .
WEE~

got to go & wrap up the presents le .
if not ie going to KO soon .
buais ! (:

Labels: K BOX (:

2:55 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, February 22, 2008Y

up to do a second post of the day .
went to did some appealing stuffs with yee .
met up with her fren, qiliang .
after tat supposed to proceed to somewhere in the north de.
ended up went to clementi ite with qiliang to meet harun .
went to pool for awhile (:
ie swear im gonna pool more with harun & qiliang (:
they are damn paitient in teaching & harun taught me how to play better (:
thnx guys!

chances of me patching with him is = 0 now .
ie learned to let go of him .
by hook or by crook .
ie must do so .
cause ie donte wante to stay in the past anymore .
ie donte know wad my future holds for me .
ie only noe that ie wante to enjoy the present .
ie hereby declear tat ie wante to move on .
ie seriously am damn serious right now .
& ie will move on .
once again ,
thnx for all the beautiful memories .

events for tml has been planned (:
oh ya! SHIT luh!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIXIANG! (:
donte say that ue are old .
ue just-ed grew up .
its a maturing process! (:

maybe ie gotten too much stress for myself .
ie cant accept the fact of my JAE results .
wished that ie can accept it sooner .
ie just hope tat ie would learn to cherish things ie have now .
im gonna work harder . (:
cheer for me .
the route infront of me is getting tougher & tougher ):
sad to mention .
ie disappointed alot of ppl .
im so so so so SORRY .
ie noe apologising here might now help .
but ie got no where else .
ie donte have the face to apologise to ue guys face to face .
so ie can only do it this way .
SORRY

Labels: Happy Birthday To: QIXIANG

5:05 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

yuhs ~
back to blogging.

ystd was a tiring day .
went to ngee ann .
couldnt appeal .
ie admit tat ie am a FAILURE luhs~
dun say im not .
i am one.

luhs ~
ie guess ie am not going to work anymore ?
abit lazy le ..
just wish tat time will pass faster ..
den ie can faster go study ..
just hope that my future wun be as DIM as now .

awww ...
ie m so hungry now.
gg to eat alot ltr on . (:
alex went to JAPAN le ...
budden tat dumb ass on his phone .
long distance calls are EXPENSIVE can ..
but never mind ..
he will be back soon (:

now @ dada de hse ...
slacking cum doing nth =p
gg to meet yee soon ..
gg to appeal more ..
today's the last day of new year ..

4:50 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, February 20, 2008Y

PLEASE STOP ASKING ME ABOUT MY JAE RESULTS.
I FEEL VERY FUCKED UP OVER IT!
THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND UNDERSTANDING!

woke up damn bloody early today.
the damn sms came in @ 6.51am.
thought supposed to come in @ 8am?
LOLS.
never mind.
the first thing ie did this morning when ie wake up was CRY.
CRIED FOR AN HOUR!
DAMN IT!

ie am not gonna say wad ie am being posted into.
just gonna give hints.
ie AM GOING TO APPEAL!
no matter how much time it will cost me.
ie WILL STILL APPEAL!
ie am not gonna waste time.
cause ie have wasted enough.

maybe wad dada said was right
ie should give up on you.
BUT I CANT!
thats the biggest problem of all.
if ie could,
ie would have let go long time ago!

ie should try wad da say.
start a new relationsip.
FUCKED UP ME.
wad am ie thinking.
no no no!
ie cannot go play with others de feeling!
ie MUST NT do tat!

today start work le.
quite nice to work
swapped mosquito.
LOLs.
no larrhs.
learned quite alot of stuffs.
but when it comes to stock counting....
HEADACHE!
just one section nia.
can count up to 1000 plus clothings[displays only!]
tom will be gg to appeal den go work.
WISH ME LUCK EVERYONE!

Labels: FAILURE

5:25 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, February 19, 2008Y

BACK TO BLOGGING!

finally gotten myself a job.
i'll be working @ LIZ CLAIBORNE from tom onwards.
as for my location...
ask me personally. =P

okays.
went to job interview today.
ie couldnt pass the banquet one cause ie dyed my hair.
WTH la.
dye hair den cannot work banquet.
never mind.
ie got myself a job @ the interview with LEVIS.
they were so kind to offer me this job!
wee~

okays.
dress code.
black blouse with black pants + heels/covered fllats.
weeeeee!
went shopping just now for my blouse.
bought at PEPPER PLUS.
good bargain.
LOLS.

im sad.
tom no one acc me eat lunch.
SOBS!
all bo xim de.
esp that mr LEONG.
gg K BOX @ night den cannot come find me for lunch la.
BO XIM!

ie cried endlessly in my heart.
ie dunno whye,
all the tears.
jux flowed back into my heart.
ie didnt let it flow out.
ie dun wanna show my weak sifde anymore.

Labels: FAILURE IN R/S., JOB GOTTEN

1:50 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, February 18, 2008Y

back to blogging.
met up with yee @ 2pm.
ate lunch & proceed-ed to inetrchange.
LOLS.
cut the story larrhs.
went to QX hse @ abt 4pm.

lols.
sat at QX hse.
do nth.
we booked tickets for movies.
CJ 7.
lols.
so in total,
ie watched CJ7 twice.KUNGFU DUNK twice, AH LONG PTE LTD twice.
LMAO.
abit waste of money rites?

hmms.
one of my fren is gg to face final court tom.
hopefully he will be fine.
please dun be a dumb ass.
RTC will be a better choice.
no canes,no records
please dun be stupid!

siianned.
wondering how to let him understand how ie feel all these while.
any recomendations?
going for job interviews tom
hopefully will pass either one of them.
den ie can start work le.
no need rot at home. =O

should ie hold a BBQ for my BIRTHDAY this year?

2:25 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, February 17, 2008Y

up to do a second post.
cux ie m bored!
LOLS.

ermm.
jux added songs to my blog.
"WHEN YOU'RE GONE" by AVRIL LAVIGNE.
nice?
please tag my tagboard!
its dying!

just flip-ed through the papers.
saw a report on a newspaper editor dying on V'day.
yuhs~
tats sad can?
she died of cancer.
ppl are all dying of cancer recently.
=((

ie kept thinking of the lyrics of this song.
its really very meaningful.
all ie ever wanted was for you to noe.
aint this wad ie wanted right from the begining?
but whye is it like till so long.
he still dun understand wad ie wanted.
do you see how much ie need you right now?
ie really need ue!!!!

lets see.
if a person's heart is divided into 10 portions.
2 portion-> storing unhappy memories.
2 portions->storing happy memories
2portions->remembering bad things.
1portion->friends
1portion->families
1portion->to remember important things
1 last portion->for relationships.
& ur heart got no more space for other stuffs,
is this wad everyone wanted?

guess im really bored.
nth to do
lazy to game.
too early to sleep [cux ie waiting for ppl to call]
lazy to search for movies
lazy to upload photos.
lazy to do everything.
wahh....
im so LAZY today!

got my chocolates back from grandma hse.
finally.
LOLS!
bleahs.
im really bored.
hope that when ie get my posting results on 19th.
ie will get into a poly.
please god!
give me confidence
give me faith
give me hope.
but please do not dash it once more!

so engrossed into listening the song.
was listening to it ystd night.
sms tone oso this song.
ended up every single mintue will hear this song. =P
abit over le ba.
tom gg to qi xiang hse.
bai nian. LOLS.
monday gg for 2 interviews ba.
one @ MS[ for waitress]
another @ genting lane [for levis]
dunno will get into which one.
hopefully is levis ba.
cux no hair colour restrictions. =p

Labels: First Month of BREAKUP.

2:22 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

today...
today...
today...
is the first month we broke up.

time really flies eh?
another one month plus.
& ie will be back schooling.
no matter is it ITE or POLY.
ie will still have to accept my fate ba.

avril lavigne de When You're Gone.
its makes me think about the past.
im always so easily to be reminded of the past.
LMAO. >(
arghhh.
shall stop talking about these.

was bus-ing home jux now.
on bus 293 tat time.
saw three idoits on a cab.
acting as if they were playing drums & guitars on the cab.
LMAO! >)
its sort of entertainment for me la.
cux ie on bus nth to do.
den listening to mp3.
saw tat funny scene. =p

hmms.
called him jux now.
was chatting on the phone for more than 20 mins ba.
was plain chatting lorrs.
finally he agreed to meet up.
next week.
& ie suggested PUNGGOL BEACH.
LOLS!
he ask me go there for wad.
ie say....
go sleep lorrs.
anw.
tats wad ie've done tat time round. =))

Labels: First Month of BREAKUP.

10:35 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, February 16, 2008Y

tom...
tom...
tom...
will be the first month since we break up.

time flies eh?
so fast.
one month pass le.
the feeling should have faded by right.
ended up,
the feeling is still there. =((

ie've tried to forget ue.
tried to accept others.
tried means & ways to give up.
but ie couldnt.
guess ie need more time.
time might be the best healing medicine for me.
ie guess so....

went to resgin yesterday.
its Valentine's & yet im resgining.
LOLS.
recieved a doraemon & a watch from god-daddy.
my self-bought present was a bag.
ie wanted it very long ago.
thank god ie found it in BUGIS STREET.
it was a good bargain for me. =O

ie spent my Valentine's in a very funny way.
wore till very lok kok.
den was meeting mum @ eunos control station @ 6pm.
luhs.
saw alot of couples there.
plus.
there's a shop which sells roses all that.
luhs~ [im jealous!]
actually before me & sis went to eunos.
we went to bugis de COLD STORAGE.
bought alot of stuffs down to tua.
like two typical ah soh.
WTH!!!!!
thats how ie spent my Valentine's day. =p

12:50 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, February 14, 2008Y

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
hope those with boyf/girlf will cherish each other.
those w/o boyf/girlf not to be sad.
cux ie m oso here.
spending valentine's alone!

ie jux wondered smth.
whye is it that for the past 5yrs
ie m always spending valentine's alone?
when ie always never fail to have a boyf after or before valentines?
maybe im jux fated to spend valentines alone
walking down the streets & cryin in my heart.
LOLS!

hmms.
ie might be abit late in this post.
cux jux now 12 sharp being flood on msn.
so came to post after ie settled all the floods on msn.
hmms.
maybe ie m really fated to spend valentine's alone.
dunno wad did ie ate on the 12th.
ie vomited in the night.
den nvm.
end up ie today whole day till now.
my tummy is very well.
couldnt really eat anything.

went to giant during evening time.
after that waited for vernon to off work.
he treated me & hw to STARBUCKS.
wee~~~~
so nice!!!
ie drank a chocolate chip cream ba.
nice man!
den we were joking non stop inside.
chatted for about an hour den went off.
cux vernon says its to compensate us for making us wait for him an hour.
LOLS~

ie've made up my on Valentine's eve.
im gonna stop smoking,
try to change wadever bad habits ie have.
& most impt.
be like a gal.
LOLS.
guess its time to be mature & stop fooling around.
ie need to grow up.
turning 17 soon.
talking about 17.
wondering whether should ie hold a bbq.
but dunno got ppl wanna go anot.
hopefully ppl will reflect on this post.
& let me noe whether they are interested to go anot!

Labels: Happy Valentine's Day

4:38 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, February 13, 2008Y

CANT BELIEVE THAT IM THE FOOL AGAIN!

im always the stupid asshole who end up hurting herself.
ie tot tat things would be better after CNY.
but....
it doesnt seems this way.
ie am still being hurt.
plus is hurt by the same person!
ie wonder did he really consider carefully.
whether did he thought of my feelings!

Labels: fool-ed again

11:22 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, February 12, 2008Y

back to blogging.
was out everyday during the CNY period.
=p

watched AH LONG PTE LTD,KUNGFU DUNK & CJ7
watched ah long pte ltd twice.
damn funny can?
that mark lee go act gay.
aiiya.
ue all go watch urself.
better.

siianned.
nth better to do.
den slacking & rotting all the way.
munching on potato chips.
lols!

the whole cny never really eat a proper meal.
no wei kou.
den alost everyday must past 12am den will reach home.
LOLS.
go slack lorrs.
so siianned.....

7:15 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, February 07, 2008Y

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

lols!
cny will only be here in another hours time.
yet ie m so kan chiong.
so fast say happy new year le!
ie wan ang baos!

wee!
painting my nails now.
yeahs.
its kinda of last minute.
but no choice.
everytime wait till finish reunion dinner.
den got abit of time to clear up my stuffs.
LMAO.
actually bought fake nails le.
but very lazy to paste.
plus short of one nail that fit mine.
so.... might as well paint.

ate little things today.
didnt have the appitite to eat seriously.
dunno whye oso.
after eating damn feel like vomiting.
yuhs~
am ie falling sick?
NO PLEASE!
ie still wanna enjoy my new year!

finally done with my left hand.
need do up my right hand le.
so ie guess ie will stop here for now.
HAPPY CNY everyone!

Labels: HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

2:30 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, February 06, 2008Y

back from shopping spree @ BUGIS STREET.
went shopping with gwen.
yuhoo.
the two of us went almost crazy lorrs.
shop-ed for a cardigan.
bought another two pairs of shoe.
one casual wear, another for mum.
bought 3 pairs of earrings.
that setlles almost all my new year stuffs.
ooooooo.
bought another pack of DIY stuff & a pack of cross stich.
LMAOs.
brought 60 bucks out.
left nth much lorrs! =p

went to suntec for DONUTS.
bought one only today.
bought espresso mousse.
LOLS.
so nice!!!!!!!!!

msg-ed anthony today.
asked him the final time.
his reply is.
will let ue noe soon.
wth.
ie m struggling so hard.
yet only one word is all ue need.
have ue ever thought about by leaving me ue are hurting me even more?
ue say ue dun wanna hurt me more.
hey.
ue are HURTING me EVEN MORE by LEAVING me!

haiish.
so far.
ie told myself ie CAN forget him.
but ie couldnt.
ie dun wanna bluff myself anymore.
ie dun wanna accept some other ppl
when ie cant provide them a place in my heart.
its unfair to them & ue.
when ie noe ie still love ue this much.
ie go accept someone else.
its self deciving.
ie dun wanna end up hurting more than two person.
whye should a innocent party get hurt when its between ue & me?
whye?

ie dun wanna hear anymore excuses from ue.
ie wan a truthful answer from ue.
did ue break up with me becux of a friend of mine?
is it cux of her?
please..
dun let it be this answer.
ie wun be able to accept this fact!

new year's approaching in another 23 hours time.
ie would like to wish everyone a happy new year.
the following will be dedicated to my grandma:
ah ma, after so long, ie still miss ue. esp when it comes to festive seasons, ie would be reminded of ue.the smile on ur face, the jokes & fun we had. ie miss gg to punggol plaza with ue. ie miss buying clothes for ue. ie miss learning how to cook from ue.ie miss staying over at ur hse.ie practically miss everything ie've done with ue.ie noe its nt possible for ue to return to me.ie noe its nt possible for all the thing to be reverted. but all ie ever asked for is jux more time with ue. whye did ue leave me so fast when ue said ue wanna wait till ie get married? whye did ue leave me so fast when ie said ie wanna take good care of ue when ie start to have big bucks coming in? whye did ue leave me when we already agreed to spending new year together? ie hate 5th september!

4:25 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, February 05, 2008Y

ie m trying a colour which ie never tried before.
GREEN!
cux ie suddenly felt like gg GREEN eh?
SAVE THE EARTH.
LOLS!

once again.
new year's gonna be here.
went to pray ah ma today.
its the second year which she is nt spending new year with me.
ie miss her so much.
normally when CNY's here.
ie would either buy clothes for her.
give her ang baos
or BOTH.
ie jux miss her so so so soooo muchiie.
almost cried while see-ing her urn.
yuhs~
guess ie really still cant take it as a fact that she left.

guess ie will be working tom.
most probably night shift till morning.
cux we are operating 24 hours.
LMAO.
okay.
ie am being lame.
cux ie really got nth to say.
hmms.
guess the feeling for anthony has fade.
ie jux wish that the guy who is always able to keep me smiling
will be with me & keep my smile on.
ie dunno will he be willing anot.
awww....
ie gg crazy again. LOLS!

jux downloaded a few themes to my phone.
ended up using the "FORGET ME NOT" bear's theme.
ie like this bear.
cux the story behind it is really meaningful.
hopefully someone who doesnt wan me to forget them will give me this bear
as a gift luhs!
its expensive can.
lalalalalalalalalalas.
okays.
ie off.
waiting for ppl to come online!
ie m soooooooooo bored!

Labels: its GREEN day

5:32 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, February 03, 2008Y

ie m BACK!

went to anna's bbq.
wee~
missed them so much!!!!
so longg never see them le!

dye-d & higlighted my hair today.
went @ ard 10plus.
den finish-ed @ 230!
OMFG!
so longg can....
awwwww....
went to giant after that.
bought my memory card!
finally.
jux finish-ed loading songs. =p

yawn!
ie feel so so tired.
later still need belinda @ 1030.
LOLS!
so ie guess ie will be slping soon eh?
LOLS! =p

4:40 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。