♥Evonne.O

Thursday, March 07, 2013Y

For you, I'll wait...

07032013's;

725 more days of wait.
you told me a few hours ago.
this isn't gonna be easy.
it's gonna hurt me somewhere here and that along the way.
but yet, i told you,
what kind of hurt have i not been through before.
i've been through worse shit that these.
2 years ain't something difficult for me.
i tell you, I'm gonna stick around,
no matter what is the outcome at the end of this 725days.

people may think,
aiiya, say only lahs.
2 years lleahs.
Really can wait meahs?
so many things will happen within this two years.
who can confirm sia..

Yes, 2 years is not very short, not very long.
Yes, 2 years can change alot of things.
Yes, at the end of this 2 years,
maybe i will get nothing in return.

BUT BUT BUT
lemme tell you guys this.
HE didn't force me to wait
HE didn't ask me must wait
HE didn't commit any things to make me wait
HE didn't promise any things to let me wait.
HE didn't paint me beautiful pictures for me to hope.
I DID IT OUT OF MY OWN WILL
i won't blame,
if at the end of this 725 days we are not together.
i won't blame,
if at the end of this 725 days is wasted.
i won't blame,
if at the end of this 725 days he choose someone else.

I only want to stick around with him,
to be with him through this part of his life.
I only want to be there for him,
when he is feeling down or whatever shit.
I want to be there when he needs,
a listening ear,
a shoulder to lean out,
a mouth that provides advice.

I don't need him to promise me that,
we will definitely be together.
he will definitely marry me.
we will have a bright future.
I DON'T NEED ALL THESE
i just want him to know,
he is not alone.
someone is here for him when he needs it.

i don't know if he will ever stumble upon what i'm writing.
i don't know what the future holds for me.
i don't know if we will be together.
i don't know what is at the end of this 725 days.
but,
i will still stick around.
i will still be here for him.
i will still wait.
i will still stay.

For you,
I will show to you,
you are not lonely in this world.
you deserve so much more better.
you are someone who is worth of my sillyness.

Labels: 725 more days, RLJH

2:21 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, March 05, 2013Y

Inspired: Lil Coussie :D

05032013's;

this post is kinda inspired by my Lil Pretty Cousin.
didn't have the intention of posting anytime soon since my last update.
but she read my blog,
and that silly girl said she almost cried!
she said after reading my blog,
she feel so intimate with me.
Thanks uh, Coussie :D

Didn't manage to catch any rest at all.
too many things running thru my mind.
too much of a planning to do for my life.
too much of decision to make for my work!
&& too much of you in my thoughts.

Was upset that your company was being punished for a fault that is not committed by you guys.
Turnout twice, and you only managed to rest at likea 1am.
WTF sia.
Where is the 8 hours of uninterrupted rest as promised :/
HAHAHAs
never mind, MAMA shall complain for you !

727 more days to your JUDGEMENT DAY.
Cha Tao. taken aback i go countdown not?
HAHA
maybe people might feel that I'm silly, I'm stupid.
What for waste 2 years of my time,
waiting for someone who can't even tell you a reason to wait for.
but deep down,
we both know very well that,
what is the wait for.

I assume you asked me to wait cos ,
you wanna use the 2 years, to let go of her,
to carve out your own career,
to be a promising guy so that your future will be better.
you don't want to commit anything yet cos you don't want to be unfair to me

As for me,
like what you kept saying me
I might be silly,might be stupid in your eyes.
but i know, you are touched.
cos from the look in your eye that night,
that very night when i told you.
2 years jiu 2 years, not like i cant wait.
and when you look at me, saying me stupid.
I saw something behind your eye,
you might think that i did not notice it.
But i did.
I saw tears in your eye.

I do not know whether the tears are cos you are touched,
or cos you were thinking,
why cant she do the same for you.
But i saw the tears, they are a fact.
Though you never let it fall,
but i felt the pinch.
I seriously do.

I do not know what the future has in store for me.
But for sure,
I know that this 727 days is gonna be tough,
tiring, lonely and hard to walk through.
but i believe, at the end of this path,
i will see the fruits of hard labor.

Whether or not after this 727 days you will still be here,
I am not bothered.
I just want you to know that,
at least at this very moment,
I am enjoying your company.
and I'm glad that God,
has brought you back to my side after 3 years.

I believe its fate that we still talk as much as we like 3 years back.
I believe its fate that we still meet each other even after 3 years.
I believe its fate, that if we are gonna be tgt by each other sides in the near future.
But regardless of whether are we gonna be tgt once more,
I still thank God for letting me know you.

I just want you to know,
I have not, and will not regret what i am doing now,
and on that saturday night.
you keep saying its not turning back,
*sounds evil*
but i really do not want any chances for this to turn back.

Misses XOXOXOXOXOXO

8:35 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, March 03, 2013Y

03032013's;

3 month plus since i last updated.
Wooots.
January and February hasn't been good to me.
So far, March has been alright for me.

Mr Wood Head said,
give me 2 years time.
if you can wait, you wait.
lemme tell you this stupid CHA TAO.
2 YEARS IS A DEAL.
you better make sure you mean what you say.
if not i die also haunt you down ahs !

though i am unsure how true it is gonna be,
but im gonna wait and see.
02032015 will be the judgement day.
but who knows whether am i able to even live till that day.

i have to decide in June2013,
whether to opt for operation or radio active iodine.
higher chances is that i will go for operation.
but if i were to unfortunately fight lose this war,
i hope you will find someone else.
i dont know what are the chances of me surviving through this ordeal.

I told you i might die in this operation.
you tell me cannot die.
you want invite me to your ORD parade,
say serious,
i was very TOUCHED by it!
i hope God will also be touched.
so that I can see your ORD parade.

i love the way we fall asleep together in each other arms.
i hope its not gonna be like how it was 3 years ago.
I hope this will work out.
i hope you know,
i am serious about this.
i hope i hope,
this is not going to turn out as a dream again!

with loves,
to VAINPOT you :D

10:53 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。