♥Evonne.O

Monday, December 29, 2008Y

its 145 more days to my BIRTHDAY ~!
2 more days to year 2009 !
i got my countdown event planned ~
POWERHOUSE to the MAX .
hopefully it wonte be as dissapointing as saturday night.
LET's PRAY ~

woke up at ard 1430.
den after that cook maggie makan.
daily routine worrs
haahas
mommy cooked fried rice for dinner today .
she recently very ON about cooking dinner lohhs ~

ermmm .
very fast worrs.
2009 coming le.
hopefully it will be a better year ahead for all people .
especially for me .
especially for those who are having a hard time this year.
everything will turn out fine next year which is coming in 2 days time !!!!!!
JIAYOUs ~

7:08 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, December 28, 2008Y

haven been updating for long .
so fking shag ...
woke up around 530pm ...
ystd slept at 6 plus 7 lohhs .
went powerhouse last night.
THE DJ SUCKS ! =X

ystd de songs like indian songs like that de.
might be due to the featuring DJ is indian bahhs .
hahas
had my rebonding done on friday.
FINALLY .
i got back my long and straight hair le !~
ok lahhs ....
my hair wasnt very curly in th first place.
hahas

siianned .
i think i gg to fall sick again =(
WTF
my immune system failing i guess.
i keep falling sick.
=(
not a good sign lohhs .

all the overdue photos i've yet to upload
LAZY ~
hahas.
im having a running nose now =(
bad thing to start a day with .
i need liquor !
i haven been drinking liqour for like 3 days =(
last night de vodka cranberry didnt give me any highness =(
SADNESS lahhs .....

6:41 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, December 24, 2008Y

im lost
really lost and utterly lost .
what decision should i make ?
should i take the radioiodine or should i go for surgery?
what can i do ?
who can help me ?!

radioiodine - radio active.
i wonte be able to be get close to young children,
pregnant womans.
i must not get pregnant within 6months at least.
this is radio active .
it might stay in my body forever
who knows.
look at hiroshima and nagasaki.
the radioactive waves are still causing hurt.
i donte wanna harm anyone around me.
i really donte wante.

surgery -
risks are high
near my main veins.
might affect my vocal cords.
scar will stay with me for the rest of my life.
im worried that i might die in the operation theater.
and i still got tons of things that i wanna do.
i cannot let the operation affect my life.

i needa be on lifelong medications if i choose either one of them.
its to make up for the lost of thyroid glands
medicine is something i hate to take .
arghhh .
i feel like giving up already.
im so tired to battle on with my condition.
really very very tired.

its gonna be a long battle with that th condition.
i really donte know how long more i can fight with it.
ppl kept asking me not to give up myself .
but im really very tired to fight with it further .
anthony promised if im going for the surgery
he will accompany me through out.
will visit me everyday .
but im really very sick n tired with life already.
i've been giving in so much in life yet all the unlucky things happens to me.
maybe i should listen to what the old ppl says ...
i reap what i sow in the previous life.
maybe this is what they call KARMA.
i totally believe in it .
thanks god for giving me so much of lessons in life.

merry christmas to all.

im in no mood for any festives recently.

not even CHINESE NEW YEAR.

2:40 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, December 22, 2008Y

taking a step back ...
i realise i've done too much silly things.
so silly that i actually sort of made myself cheap.
WTF .

haven got the time to upload all my pics.
shall do it when im real free .
most probably this weekend or next weekend le.
went for MASSAGE last night.
my back BLUE BLACK le !
shall take a photo of it den upload =/
super unglam when i wear spag tops or tube tops.
hopefully the bruise will be gone soon.

im confused.
went drinking on saturday night
with clement n egbert
more than half of the martell went into my stomachh !
wth ...
cause donte wante let egbert drink so much
den clement also donte wanna drink so much.
so end up i drink =/

puked on cab on the way home
FUCK.
v long never puke le lohhs .
siianned 1/2.
green green de .
EEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hahas .
well .
puking improves ppl's drinking
so puke lohhs ~

should i continue to wait for my prince of my life ?
or should i just totally give up ?
im tired.
cant move on in life without other motivations.
i think i need someone in my life so badly to care for me.
i practically feel so helpless and useless in life.
i donte know what is my aim
i donte know what i should do next.
i donte know how to move on anymore.
im sick and tired of everything ...

4:46 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, December 20, 2008Y

okays .
i swear he's a baddiie !
im not gonna wait anymore.
BIG BADDIE !!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhh ...

celebrated clement's birthday @ Play last night .
hahas.
clement was gone by 12 plus can ..
after th waterfall treatment (=
got to know more abt joash,ian,ivan,robin lohhs (=
all care alot for me de (=
so nice of them can (=
nice ouuting with them (=

had a bad hangover today .
slept till 2plus den wake up .
felt like vomiting but cant .
WTH .
hahas .
den had a terrible sleep the whole night =(

errmmmm ....
got to know this guy by the name of CHARLES last night at PLAY (=
taller den me by one head lohhs =(
i so short =(((
sadden lohhs .
everyone oso tall tall de.
den end up i so short !
hahas.
yesterday even before party start ,
we already high like siao liaos.
photos with clement.
shall go take from him den upload !

4:43 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, December 17, 2008Y

王子终于回复我的讯息了。
my prince, my knight.
he finally replied me last night.
but he was drunk.
should i take wad he say for real ?
ppl say 酒后吐真言...
should i believe ?
should i take it for real ?
or should i just take it as he is drunk and spouting nonsense ?

woke up around 2pm.
hoping to recieve his reply this morning.
but end up never =/
see whether he will reply tonight anot lohhs.
well .
supposed to go re-bond hair de.
but well ....
no one accompany me go lahs ....
FKING irritating .
never mind.
shall go alone.
anyway im used to it can ...
ppl need me ppl come.
ppl donte need me .
ppl go.

2:56 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, December 16, 2008Y

back to posting.

feeling super uber bored after sleeping for such long hours.

i've got good and bad news

i've developed allergies for the second type of medications prescribed to me by the doctor.

and this is the last type of medicine available for my condition.

plus,

im not taking medicines to control my heartbeat rate.

it can come up to 120beats per minute at times

congrats to me den.

cause this is wad i've been looking for.

to die early (=

congrats me quick peeps !

very fast can eat curry chicken on house le !!!!!

YIPEEEEEEEE ~

he finally replied me after so many days .

but its only a simple message sent in 5.33am this morning.

half an hour after i fell asleep.

i regretted so much not staying up abit more.

if i stayed up.

maybe i will get to reply him once i recieved.

and not reply only now when i wake up.

hence.

im waiting to see whether he will reply anot.

hopefully he will.

god ...

please.

give me this last wish if u are gg to bring me away soon

i just want to enjoy a last relationship before i go.

will i be able to do so ?

will my last wish be fufilled ?

i guess i can cancel out all my 2009 wishlist le !

7:29 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

first of all,
a million of SORRIES to WINNIE .
sorry sorry.
i just came back from malaysia.
was a very last minute thingy.
sorry =(

just realised that i've been lagging far too back in BLOG.
haven been blog hopping for long.
& i just realised im so stupid.
ppl play me out ,
got together with another gal even BEFORE we BROKE OFF.
WTF is this ?! ?@?#?#?!?!!!!
KNNBCCB. I HATE TIMERS !!!!!!!!!!
donte ever time me !
i will get fking angry.
i might even kill u.

its 53 more days to his ORD date.
158 more days to my birthday.
i really wish to spend my 18th birthday with him.
in a very meaningful way.
is it too much to ask for ?
haiish ~

was in m'sia the whole day.
EMO can ....
i cant set him aside in my mind.
i cant forget him.
god .
please.
if he aint meant for me.
please take me away from this world

3:43 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, December 10, 2008Y

59 more days to HIS ORD DATE.
164 more days to MY BIRTHDAY.

the "HIM" is someone unknown.
not all ppl noes him.
only a few noes.
and i actually cried becux of him last night.
=X
crying seems to be the only way for me to release my emotions.
but didnt cry too much .
heart aches .

hmms ....
im not sure whether does this mean i've moved on with life.
cause i noe i will still look back in life.
but well.
i like the feeling when im with him
at least i donte get those very akward times whereby there is total silence.
i like the liveliness between us.
at least when i talks,
he listens.
when i listen.
he talks (=

no matter how long
no mater how far.
even though u might always be in tekong.
i will prove to u that i really will wait for u.
59 more days is all i need.
but do i have it ?
6th February 2009.
please come fast ~

6:51 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, December 08, 2008Y

i cant sleep !
guess its due to the long hours of sleeping the past two days.
im supposed to be at my old place,
powerhouse with calvin n egbert now.
ARGHHH .
all thanks to my mummy ,
n my stupid throat !
ARGHHHHHH ~
i hate the feeling of being sick !

i've been missing out alot of funs in CLUBS.
especially my ST JAMES ,
ARGHHHH .
supposed to be able to go de lohhs !
end up mummy say no =(
sadden ! T.T
damn feel like crying lohhs.
cannot go out =(

getting more n more EMO le .
nothing to do
cant fall asleep .
ARGHHH

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3:03 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, December 07, 2008Y

just woke up from sleep .
went into the SLEEPING session again.
throat infection again.
this time round its more serious .
cause if the swell donte go off by tuesday
i need go back for a jab .
*thats a not v worse case*

haven eat dinner yet .
waiting for clavin to fetch me for dinner.
he's reaching soon.
well.
tom is having a high fever .
guess i was the culprit.
cause we went to pasir ris park on fri night .
think caught a cold from there.
sorry !

but well ....
i had my fair share too.
im having slight fever last night.
n i cried like no body's business !
LOL.
still very kiddy of me to cry cause of the pain ya ?
hahas .

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8:05 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, December 04, 2008Y

its been long since i did a second post for a day .
having this headache which just wouldnt go off !
FUCKING PAIN ~

molly's too weird today.
she didnt find fault with me ,
didnt come and look for me !
today too peaceful le lohhs !
abit not very used to it .
hahas.
but well.
i donte mind =)

my body's system very very weird can.
i was grumbling about being hungry this morning.
den when it hits lunch time ,
went to Centrepoint for lunch,
i donte seem to be hungry anymore !
i just fking donte know what's wrong with my body !
abit crazy .
sometimes i eat alot ,
sometimes i donte eat.

is this signs of dying ?
if yes,
god please .
take me to ur side FAST .
i cannot take the stress here anymore.
i want to go to a place where i can enjoy life le.
very tiring here.

listening to random songs from phone.
"Always Be My Baby" is the song now.
memories flashed back.
my "he" used to sing it to me over the phone whenever i requested.
"he" now belongs to someother ppl.
does "he" also sing it to her ?
please dont.
let this song be only for the two of us can ?
i really ~~missed~~ you.
i shant use that word anymore.
"he" aint suit for me to MISS him.
i want to get over you,
and lead a brand new life fast.
really fast.
i wanna put this relationship into the memories.
lock it up,
and never let it be unlocked.
i just felt like curling up in a corner.
and sort out all my feelings and thoughts at one go.

on this hand,
i want to enjoy being loved.
but on the other hand,
my heart skipped a beat for somebody else.
im confused.
i donte dare to put in much hope n feelings.
im afraid things will turn out the way like the other time.
im really afraid.
i became very anti-social recently.
i donte know why oso.
maybe its a sign of being self-defensive.
might be my sub conscious which is warning me to prevent myself from being hurt once more.
my sub conscious has always been there to protect me.
without it,
i guess i would have long be on the news that i've been hit down by a car or something like that
its that sub conscious which kept me to stay strong till today.
i will live on hard.
thanks

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4:49 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

im in th office now.
just reach at around 9 ..
abit late today.
cause overslept abit.
mum woke me up and she went for work.
n i continued to sleep for another 10 mins like that.

wasnt able to rest early last night.
even though i went home super early =(
something happened.
and sis and i went to look for someone.
reached home at around 2.15am.
bathed and prepared to sleep.
lie on bed only i KO le =)
hahas.
that's how tired im.

this weekend would be a perfect one.
its a long weekend.
might be heading over to st james on sunday night
MAYBE only ....
needa see how thing goes.
hahas .
*my pay haven come ! i got lots of stuffs that i wanna buy!*
siianned 1/2 lahhs .

am having a headache now.
forgotten to bring my migraine medicine out =(
sad case.
never mind ....

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9:14 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, December 03, 2008Y

just realised i haven update blog for today.
normally i will update my blog once i begin to settle for the day in office.
but today seems like a never ending day for me.
molly kept picking on me.
a very sad case =(

it was like ....
she walked over to my desk.
just nice i just finished my stuffs and im eating my breakfast.
so it was like .
molly : "why are you eating now & what are you doing ?"
evonne : "i eating breakfast cause i just finish nisa's stuffs"
molly : "evonne , you know u cannot like this or not. Pattern so much. why is your phone charging here ?
why is your ear piece in your ears? talking on the phone? now is working hours can ?!"
evonne: "orh. i listening to music"
molly: "u suka suka listen music, suka suka eat breakfast, suka suka play computer. you cannot like this you
know? your discipline very bad!"
evonne: "ORH"
molly: "i want you move to joanne's place to do nisa's work. you sit in this corner i need everyday come see."
evonne: "ok lohhs." *brainless! ii go there sit , i donte have access to the e-mail system, no access to everything.*
and so ....
in the end i also never move place.
still in my own sweet place !

yesterday went for dinner with adison.
hahas .
pepper lunch express lohhs !
yeahs ~
very long never eat le.
forgotten to take photos with him.
he very cute lohhs .
keep saying cold jokes.
after dinner,
shopped around TM & CS ....
den kinda siianned.
so took the free bus to GIANT ~
go find ppl .
adison bought me chocolates !
i got the pictures with me on my phone.
but since im in the office,
im unable to load it ! =(

one of the choco actually contains REMY MARTIN VSOP .
hahas
bought me two packs of hershey's dark chocolate lohhs !
so sweet of him.
he knows that i love choco.
den he bought for me (=
thanks arrs adison (=
i really appreciate it alot.
he even accompanied me to walk home together from tampines interchange lohhs (=

i actually went to check out the SONY VAIO Luxury Pink @ Courts Tampines again last night
im really into getting that laptop for my own use.
donte wanna share laptop with sis anymore.
shall apply my own personal broadband and stuffs.
lock it up.
donte let her use ! =) heh.
mass changed my phone's song.
deleted those that i donte really listen to.
kept n loaded new songs in (=
well well ....
of course have jay's new songs lahhs.
but selective de.
and plus ....
after the mass change,
my song list
became very short lohhs .
SADDEN =(

guess i need get my mositurizer into office soon.
my skin keeps drying up.
very pain.
my lips oso .
shall get my whole house here.
hahas !
just trying to be lame.
anyway.
my desk is gg to be filled with tibits soon =/
hahas.
got pringles , got babystar , got chocolates.
hahas.
guess my desk is meant for food eh ?
hahas .

ok .
think that's about all..
im gg for LUNCH le !

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12:21 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, December 02, 2008Y

is this a wrong decision to make?
or was it just my fault for being too rush ?
or was the fault the timing he appeared?
im confused.
worn out n exhausted.

damn feel like sleeping.
chatted on the phone with him till 3am last night.
feel super shagged now.
ate pao n took my medications.
stupid molly.
shouted over the office again .
i buy pao come up.
she ask
molly: "evonne! where you go?!"
evonne:"i go buy pao lohhs..."
molly: "now is working hour or buy pao time?!"
i was like.
WTF luhs ....
cannot eat arrs?!!

fucking siianned.
guess i gg to chao keng sick leave later .
say not feeling well again.
she wanna sack me.
sack by all means.
i will open the door myself n get out of the office de.
i no need her to shoo me out of this office building .
i will walk out by my own (=

i woke up in tears again this morning.
& i was actually being woken up by fear !
wth lohhs .
i mean .
i really donte know what is happening in my dreams.
but its like .
im always waking up in fear ,
waking up in tears.
early in the morning EMO is the first thing to do.
donte know wad the hell is happening .

i out of a sudden very guai .
started to take my regular medications like thyroid de, gastric de.
begin to noe must take care of myself le.
keep falling sick.
i guess my thyroid problem is worsening .
must be good gal go eat medicine n have sufficient rest .
i donte wanna be living worse without him.
yes,
i can do it.
JIAYOU.

guess molly is picking on me
she purposely ask me no need take over eugina's account,
ask me do all those stupid work.
i needa clear the ICON submission for Nisa n Marie.
do i look like a thousand hand guanyinma to her ?
wth lohhs =(
sadden.

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11:54 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, December 01, 2008Y

its monday again ~
173 more days to my 18th birthday !
anybody wanna celebrate for me? =/
but i think i wanna celebrate it with my whole bunch of bestie !
i simply miss them alot.
alot alot alot alot.

heard a song called 爱太痛 .
by kenji wu.
it suits me alot i guess .
i really donte dare to commit into any relationship anymore.
yes .
i can consider others who are of better qualities than him.
but i cant bring myself to do it .
i donte know how to bring myself to love someone once more.

hmms .
my phone is failing on me le =(
SIIANNED .
must fast fast change phone le !
think gonna aim for SE for next phone.
NOKIA IS IRRITATING ME.
promise to make a call back ?
call till where sehhs ....
fuck lohhs ....
from 48 hours become 1 week still haven call back .
i want SUE nokia le.
STUPID ASSES . =(

ermms ...
abit agitated ....
haiish .
never mind about me le .

recently ,
there is this guy who is extremely good to me .
i donte dare to accept n donte dare to think about it .
im afraid im getting depression soon.
really very soon .
sometimes ,
i will wake up to find myself in tears for no reason .
i didnt had any bad dream the night before.
i didnt think of HIM before sleeping.
his name no longer appear in my mind.
no longer.
im numbed.
but whye am i finding myself in tears every morning ?
can someone explain to me ?

3:28 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。