♥Evonne.O

Sunday, July 25, 2010Y

张靓颖-如果这就是爱情

你做了选择对的错的
我只能承认心是痛的
怀疑你舍得我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了何必再强忍

我没有选择我不再完整
原来最后的吻如此冰冷
你只能默认我要被割舍
眼看着你走了

如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒

如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

灰色的天空无法猜透
多余的眼泪无法挽留
什么都牵动感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人原来不是我

我不要你走我不想放手
却又不能够奢求同情的温柔
你可以自由我愿意承受
把昨天留给我

got to know of this song when i was in Hongkong
managed to find this song recently
was quite shocked that not alot of Singaporeans know about it thou
its a very nice song
nice MV too .

went Pasir Ris with laopo last night
had a HTHT .
felt really great
because i finally let out all that is being surpressed in my heart
although didnt managed to cry out
but i still felt much better

went to HKC last evening for dinner
but wasnt a really pleasant one .
had abit of hiccups here and there .
but well...
its over
i should not brood over it
brooding over it also wonte help me to look prettier .
so why should i (:

starting a new work tomorrow.
donte get the wrong idea
i'm still staying on in LFI
but its just that im looking for a day job to prevent myself from rotting =p
hopefully i will be able to stay on till the contract ends. (:
god bless !

8:01 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, July 23, 2010Y

things are changing
human beings are changing
everything is changing ...

i realised that whenever you donte wante something to happen,
it will just somehow or rather take place .
when you have the strong desire for it
things will just come out as the opposite manner.
whye must things happen in this manner ?

went for an interview yesterday morning
yes, i managed to secure a one year contract
but so what ?
i'm still busy busy with my LFI (:
all i need is just another 3 months.
3 months to realising my dreams
3 months more to have the last laugh.
but who understands this
except for people on the same boat as me

people always laugh at us for being silly.
but have they ever thought that they themselves wonte have the final laugh ?
if yes,
whye must they indulge in a self-denial mode ?
whye cant they just wake up from their bloody nonsense idea ?
whye must they keep cheating their own feelings ?

sighs.
whenever i'm looking for a romance
it just wonte happen
but look now
i'm not looking for one
but ended up with a few scandals -.-
i'm not saying its not good
but its just a weird feel

i do admit that i've got a bit of good feeling towards him
but i just donte feel that its right at this moment
or perhaps it wonte be right forever ?
i can accept alot of facts that my family members cant
but what if one fine day
i decided to stay with him for long ?
will my family members give me their blessings ?
i donte think so ... =/

sighs.
god, please show me a way .
if he is the one,
please enlighten me with some hints.
i'm confused =/

4:48 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, July 20, 2010Y

hey people !
im backkk ...

some food for thought:
ever wondered what will we be like 10 years down the road ?
ever wondered what will the world look like 10 years down the road ?
ever wondered will we still be in the poverty cycle or we managed to get out of it ?
ever wondered whye human beings always put themselves in the rat race that everyone is in ?

just some sudden thoughts that came into my mind.
was thinking back on the things i have done for myself for the past 3 years.
and looking back at the time that i've wasted on non-productive stuffs
i regretted.
truely regretted.

now i fully understand what it means to look back and regret or look back and enjoy
WTF .
its totally two different feeling.
when you look back and regret, you will frown and tear in sorrow
when you look back and enjoy, you will smile and tear in joy
and human beings are always structured in the manner whereby they will always look back and regret
for me.
a month plus ago when i decided to step into my new company
i've not regretted.
at least so far
the things that i've been through
i believe that its something i cant get outside (:

well.
i've always believed in something
in life,
its either you choose to agree with fate
or you choose to create your own fate
and i've chosen the second as my option.
because, creating my own fate is much more exciting !

12:32 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, July 14, 2010Y

today, is the day where i broke down.
although it isnt a major breakdown
but i still feel the hitch ):

was reflecting on my situation
talked to kenny about it and i broke down
was wondering at the moment in time,
was everything worthwhile ?
but yet,
i could not find the right way out.

after compressing for a month plus
i begin to realise alot of things just dont work out the way we want
sometimes
you might have put in alot of effort
but you just donte recieve the kind of results
and others who never put in as much
just tend to overtake you
purely just by LUCK,

its kinda de-moralising
i donte know how to put it in words
neither is there any appropriate person to listen to me rant
all i can do is just to rant into my tiny space
which is my blog.
but honestly speaking
how many people would be reading my post now
and feeling the same way as what im feeling ?
if there yes,
please feel free to tag me

if there is nothing else in life to hold me on
i guess i would have no longer be here
all these while
its my drive, goals and dreams that is holding me back
sometimes deep down
dark in the night
i did thought of letting go everything again
but i gave up that crazy idea
cause i wanna make it big in life
and the only way is to hang on once more

3:26 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, July 06, 2010Y

hey people !
its me back to updating once more !

good news.
on the official ending for june pv month, (which is 050710)
i am officially promoted to a REGIONAL MANAGER !
congrats me fast fast !

the reason whye im up to posting today is because of two things,
1) to thank the people who have helped me out
2) to share more about being a RM :)

1) firstly, i would wante to thank my ZZTs: Fabian & Kenny for all the support and the knowledge that they have imparted to me. honestly speaking, without them, i would have given up halfway through my journey in LFI. to me, i was like a lone ranger through out fighting for my own targets. at the moment when i thought of giving up, they were the ones who pulled me up and showed me encouragement and made me believe that it could be done. and at the very last min when i could not find a way out, they were the ones who showed me a way out.
secondly, i would like to thank ShiLing da jie :) she will always be there to keep encouraging me and giving me appreciation for things that i've done ! thank you da jie
thirdly, i would like to thank my team mates: Luwis, Chris, YongMing and others :) thanks for trusting me and believing in me that we could together as a team make this work out !
fourthly, i would like to thank my sidelines like KokWeng, Bryan, JiaHao for giving me the encouragement and fighting on with me. and especially GERALD POH. thanks for your upcoming restaurant treat at HongKong Cafe :) woots.
fifth, i would like to thank this two person specially, Shanon & Cecille. Thanks for introducing me this platform where i could make my dreams out of it. even though you guys might not be here to witness my growth in LFI itself, but without the both of you, i would not have been able to make the first step to even join. Thanks babes.
lastly, i would like to thank every single one who have given me advice & helped me out,like Justin, Jack, Ryan*aka GuangQiu*,Max *aka LTLD*, Gisela, Jackson, Chester, Vic, Alvin, Small Eric, Jerry, Ray, Mike, people who has set down friendly matches with me like Alex, Gerald & Small Eric to motivate me to move on no matter how tough this route seems.

2)being a RM may look easy on the surface. but honestly speaking, i would not say its easy nor its tough. basically, we just got to have this trust and believe in our mentors & uplines that this can be done. all we needa to is to follow whatever they have done, copy and paste and it will be done :) remember, never ever think of looking for a short cut. because our mentors have been there longer then us, they have alrd tried all the different short cuts that we could think of. and always follow through the planning that they have made for us. and you sure wonte miss it :)

anyways, to all people who is in LFI and is reading this, please please please JIAYOU. we only need to endure for another 96 days before we go regional. this is the best time to build up your strong army and fight ! JIAYOU ! we will make this a big thing (:

so basically,
my life right now will be focusing on how to build up my army to be the strongest !
i believe i can do it.
people, you guys can too, do it, if i can (:

2:05 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, July 02, 2010Y

hi people.
its me back again !
just managed to stop myself from playing the Facebook game.
so intend to update my blog before i head for my bed.

recently damn busy with my promotion.
im hitting my regional manager real soon.
but there's alot of hard work to be done definitely.
but im glad that i have my mentors to guide me along in this route
and i have other directors help too.
i guess im happy and contented with my progression now
at least i see results faster than before

im really really looking at saving up
because mommy wanna go on a holiday to HONGKONG :)
i promised i will save up to sponsor abit for her trip =X
haas.
really hope that i will be able to send my parents overseas asap.
its time that they start to travel.
and not work anymore :)

its been sometimes since i've talk about my personal life too.
yep, not long ago,
i've had a crush on someone who is alrd attached.
but no worries,
its just a CRUSH.
i've gotten over with it
just waiting for my MR.RIGHT to come by
i believe he will come by very soon.
*donte ask me whye, its just my gut feeling =p*

anyway,
peeps.
i got to go to sleep now.
been cultivating this bad habit of sleeping in the wee hours
den wake up damn late.
but luckily
recently got ALARM CLOCK call me to wake me up
around 11 i will be woken up by the call !
haas !

4:39 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。