♥Evonne.O

Wednesday, March 25, 2009Y

its my OFF DAY :D
haas.
actually w/o this off day im still fine.
cause i just returned to work not long (:

hmms.
shall be meeting didi @ 2pm later on.
to discuss about chalet
but im v tired lleahs.
donte know i wanna go anot.
haas.
got ppl jio me at night go rounding lohhs !
haas.

anyway .
i've been reading posts.
im sad to see what was being posted onto tht particular blog.
i'm still missing you.
i guess you donte even know about it.
i've been controlling my tears.
not allowing it to flow.
because i once promised you tht i wonte cry so easily anymore.
every single song
every single place
every single minute
everytime when i walked past tht room {K3}
its you who's on my mind
my bloody fking mind just cant get over you D:
i just donte know what is it .
i just cant forget you.

everything around me seems to be reminding me of you
the bus journey on bus 3 when you send me to work.
th macDonald's at tampines mall and tampines interchange
when we used to meet each other.
th bus stop opposite of tampines stadium tht i once waited for you
in hope to surprise you when you alight from bus
ending up with th mistake tht i thought you took bus 34
th room where i first know you
"K3"
-you were with 8 other friends of yours for dinner.
-i remembered checking your ic when you asked me where's th smoking room
-i remembered saying sorry after checking
-i remembered how you asked for my number.
-i remembered you saying tht you took my number cause you felt tht i was stupid
i remembered how i spent my off day with you at The Cage watching you playing soccer.
i remembered how i accompanied you and your mates to kallang leisure park
when we hang arounded there till 8pm in th night.
and then going to your place staying overnight
and you had high fever.
i remembered tht i woke up every 10mins staring at you.
i remembered tht you text me saying you saw me looking at you everytime you opened your eyes.
i remembered every single thing tht took place to bring me to you
th golden village at tampines mall where we watched our first movie
"K20: The legend of the mask"
th cathay cinema at E!Hub where we watched our second movie
"The curious case of benjamin button"
th third movie tht we watch at golden village
"Suspect X"
th heart shapes tht you fold using th bus tickets.
everything just seems to remind me of you on purpose!

till now
im still thinking.
why didnt you visit me a single time when i suffered th fall.
whye.
during tht period of time.
no matter how others comforted me
i still couldnt be put in ease.
all i needed was just you without saying anythin
just accompany me by my side.
or just you calling me to tell me "donte worry"
that's all i needed.
but all you just said was
"i'm still working you know?"
"i'm tired"

i understand tht it would be inconvinent for you to go home at tht hour.
but was it so diffcult for you to just drop me a call ?
was it just so hard ?
如果我的生命即将结束，我最大的后悔就是为何不能与你一直到最后。
that would be th biggest regret for me.
i wanted to last with you.
i wanted to make you my last
but everything just ended.
it's been 8 days since you last called or text me.
is it really ending forever between you and me?
im sad.

my spinal injury aint getting any better i guess.
it still hurts this much when i bent down.
i still cant carry heavy objects.
i cant kick things hardly like th past
i miss those times
can i go back to th past .
i would rather live in my past.
and enjoy days which have you by my side.
and days before i fell down in KBox ):

6:29 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。