♥Evonne.O

Sunday, March 29, 2009Y

warning !
th following content might make you guys laugh or cry.
adult supervision is required (:

it might sound stupid .
i cried at my workplace on 27th night.
i didnt had enough sleep th night before.
and i was feeling so fucked up at work
due to customers
i kept silent all th way.
i thought about you.
out of a sudden,
you came back into my mind.

it was a busy night tht day.
all rooms were filled
no exception for k3.
it looks as though its fate.
k3's customer kept looking for me.
asking me to take photos for them.
bringing a lost lady back to their room.
settling their bill and sorts.
i was reminded of you whenever i walked by.
therefore i always avoided tht route as frequent as possible.
as much as needed, i wonte appear at tht route for nothing.
tht night was really an exception.

after taking photos for them,
i felt so down.
i went into th ladies .
but tears just wouldnt come out.
i thought i would be fine
and thus i went back to work.
but when i was back at my service counter.
tears started to flow.
jingfang came and saw me crying.
she thought tht i was just plain tired at th startin till she saw me sobbing.
she comforted me.
but i just kept crying.

after awhile,
i wiped my tears thinking that i've cried my share.
a moment later .
i went to th staircase where we used to smoke at before i start work
& i begin crying again !
well.
after smoking two sticks of cig
i went back thinking everything is over.
but when i went to ask for permission to smoke .
and ann lee asked me th reason for me being so silent th whole night.
i fucking CRIED again.
WTF was i thinking ?
i couldnt figure out whye i kept crying till i saw th time and date.
it was 26 mins to 28th march 2009.
maybe you might have alrd forgotten th meaning of this date.
but i still remember it so clearly.

it was supposed to be our first month tgt
but everything just ended.
i guess you may be leading a better life now.
you are going on a holiday to hongkong soon.
and im praying tht you will have a safe journey and enjoy it.
it sounds silly.
but i know im gonna need some time to get over you.
i finally realised something.
maybe what we've got for each other was just crush in th begining.
but i treated this relationship so seriously tht i begin to have feelings for you
as for you, when th feeling faded ,
you chose to avoid and run away.
but i would understand.
thanks for everything tht you have given to me.
those are things which other couldn't provide.
you have given me stuffs which couldn't be bought outside
and taught me lessons tht couldn't be found in school.
thanks (:

anyway,
just a quick flash of my life recently,
i've been working non stop like a workaholic.
madness aint it ?
anyway
th whole night shift am left with only one female server .=/
and tht's me =/
xue er alrd resign and went off.
and thus leaving me alone ):
anyway,
a customer gave me his bottle of 12yrs CHIVAS REGAL SCOTCH WHISKY ~
wee ~

9:48 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, March 25, 2009Y

its my OFF DAY :D
haas.
actually w/o this off day im still fine.
cause i just returned to work not long (:

hmms.
shall be meeting didi @ 2pm later on.
to discuss about chalet
but im v tired lleahs.
donte know i wanna go anot.
haas.
got ppl jio me at night go rounding lohhs !
haas.

anyway .
i've been reading posts.
im sad to see what was being posted onto tht particular blog.
i'm still missing you.
i guess you donte even know about it.
i've been controlling my tears.
not allowing it to flow.
because i once promised you tht i wonte cry so easily anymore.
every single song
every single place
every single minute
everytime when i walked past tht room {K3}
its you who's on my mind
my bloody fking mind just cant get over you D:
i just donte know what is it .
i just cant forget you.

everything around me seems to be reminding me of you
the bus journey on bus 3 when you send me to work.
th macDonald's at tampines mall and tampines interchange
when we used to meet each other.
th bus stop opposite of tampines stadium tht i once waited for you
in hope to surprise you when you alight from bus
ending up with th mistake tht i thought you took bus 34
th room where i first know you
"K3"
-you were with 8 other friends of yours for dinner.
-i remembered checking your ic when you asked me where's th smoking room
-i remembered saying sorry after checking
-i remembered how you asked for my number.
-i remembered you saying tht you took my number cause you felt tht i was stupid
i remembered how i spent my off day with you at The Cage watching you playing soccer.
i remembered how i accompanied you and your mates to kallang leisure park
when we hang arounded there till 8pm in th night.
and then going to your place staying overnight
and you had high fever.
i remembered tht i woke up every 10mins staring at you.
i remembered tht you text me saying you saw me looking at you everytime you opened your eyes.
i remembered every single thing tht took place to bring me to you
th golden village at tampines mall where we watched our first movie
"K20: The legend of the mask"
th cathay cinema at E!Hub where we watched our second movie
"The curious case of benjamin button"
th third movie tht we watch at golden village
"Suspect X"
th heart shapes tht you fold using th bus tickets.
everything just seems to remind me of you on purpose!

till now
im still thinking.
why didnt you visit me a single time when i suffered th fall.
whye.
during tht period of time.
no matter how others comforted me
i still couldnt be put in ease.
all i needed was just you without saying anythin
just accompany me by my side.
or just you calling me to tell me "donte worry"
that's all i needed.
but all you just said was
"i'm still working you know?"
"i'm tired"

i understand tht it would be inconvinent for you to go home at tht hour.
but was it so diffcult for you to just drop me a call ?
was it just so hard ?
如果我的生命即将结束，我最大的后悔就是为何不能与你一直到最后。
that would be th biggest regret for me.
i wanted to last with you.
i wanted to make you my last
but everything just ended.
it's been 8 days since you last called or text me.
is it really ending forever between you and me?
im sad.

my spinal injury aint getting any better i guess.
it still hurts this much when i bent down.
i still cant carry heavy objects.
i cant kick things hardly like th past
i miss those times
can i go back to th past .
i would rather live in my past.
and enjoy days which have you by my side.
and days before i fell down in KBox ):

6:29 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, March 19, 2009Y

everything seems to end in such a nice way uh ?
everything ended in this manner that it seems like my fault again ):
maybe im just not a good galf .
not fit and donte deserve to have a good relationship.
or maybe everything just isnt right yet .
i should just stay single for th time being.

anyway.
its time for me to move on in life .
i should look for better things to do instead of crying and weeping yea ?
i've really learnt alot from th past FAILED relationship.
i shall just stay single and be like before
th cheerful me should just be back !
no this ugly and mean me (:

am recovering well from th fall.
thanks to those who took care of me.
am returning to work on this friday.
really looking foward to it (:
i miss th fun and laughter there.
at least it brightens me up !
thanks to KBox DTE staffs (:
u guys are a bunch of nice ppl to hang out with !

anyway.
im officially back to my singlehood.
might not consider getting into any relationship for the time being.
need a break from everything (:
friends are still th best for me !

.p.s :
jingfang, belinda
thanks for listening to me nag !
hahas.
im like an old hag who nag nag nag .
anyway.
there are still lot more ppl out there whom i wanna thank.
thanks peepo(s) !

2:05 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, March 18, 2009Y

to my beloved honey baybee :
maybe i shouldnt be calling u this anymore.
i was the one who initated this breakup.
confusing isn't it ?
♥ 或许我们都太年轻，把爱梦的太完美。也或许我们都把爱想的太简单。如果我们一开始都对爱坦白，对爱珍惜，那么，我们是否会伤的那么深？又或许一开始如果我们都不去伤害爱，它应该也不会伤害我们吧？♥
is this true enough ?
i've seen through alot of things alr .
i know it aint possible for us to be back together once more.
but still .
i love you lots .
this relationship has brought me alot of sweet memories.
it hasn't brought me any hurt
in a r/s ,
when they break up.
there will be a party who brings th tear away,
th other party who brings the smile away.
i choosen to bring th tears away cause i donte wanna see u sad.
jiayou in life ok ?
u are someone with great future.
just donte take th route u took in th past
u are still my love , my honey baybee ♥

1:53 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Sunday, March 15, 2009Y

just came back from th hospital not long ago
had a fall at workplace.
just slipped and fell at th nihon mura de kitchen there.
just couldnt move and all.
quan carried me to room 35 for me to rest.
cause it aint a good sight for me to lie on th floor while there is customers.
aint it ?

got xue er to call baybee at th very first min.
but a sad thing
he's working.
& as expected .
i cried like shit and hell.
cause its SUPER UBER PAINFUL when i move
WTF can ...
i informed mom and papa
was sent into th hospital by AMBULANCE
SIA SWAY ~
cause i couldnt even walk.
that's a big problem .
so the paramedics came up with the strecher ...
and i got sent down by tht to th hospital

after one whole lot of checkups and everything
went for XRAY.
there's a small fracture on the end of my spinal.
well.
i must feel lucky that it aint a serious fracture i reckon.
thank god.

gotten 5 days MC and a few stupid medications.
i needa rely on cructhes to walk now.
i cant sit for long..
it hurts. =/
im sad

2:32 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, March 13, 2009Y

back to blog !
went to IT fair just now.
took UPL for work .
wasnt able to attend work cause of some problems.
after settling my problems ,
went to IT fair to look for baybee ♥ & belinda (:

waited for baybee ♥ to off work.
he finished work ard 9.
den i waited for hm around like 20 mins before he is done reporting .
den he sent me back to tampines.
but he got angry ):
cause he tired le i still let him accompany me back till tamp.
sorry baybee ♥ love.

well .
damn tired now.
feel like sleeping le.
tml will be working from 7-3am .
SHAG !!!
alright .
time for some song lyrics !

{♥I remember like it was yesterday
First kiss and I knew you changed the game
You have me, exactly, well you want it,
And I'm on it
And I ain't ever gonna let you get away
Holdin' hands never made me feel this way
So special, boy it's your, it's your smile
We so in love
La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your
La la la la la
Yeah
we so in love, love
I want you to know
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
Been a minute and we still holding it down
Butterflies every time you come around
You make me, so crazyIt's crazy, oh baby
And I don't ever wanna be with no one else
You're the only one that ever made me melt
You're special, boy it's your, your style
We so in love
La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your
La la la la la
Yeah it's all I'm thinking of
LoveI want you to know
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
Everything, everything, oooEverything, everything, ooo
[Will.I.Am]
You're my always and forever
You're my sunshine
On my mind, constant
Think about you all the time
You're my everything
Everything, everything, ooo
Everything, everything, ooo
[Will.I.Am]You my new school (love)
You my old school (love)
And it's so true
You're the one I'm thinking of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
(You make the sun come up on a cloudy day
You're my number one, you're my special thing)
You're my every, every, every, everything
Everything, everything, ooo
Everything, everything, ooo
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love
Everything, everything, ooo
Everything, everything, ooo
You're my everything
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love♥}

this song lyrics is specially for my baybee ♥ love (:
nights sweetheart honey baybee ♥

12:41 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, March 07, 2009Y

im having insomina
serious insomina :(
honey baybee is SLEEPING.
he's still aint feeling well.
wondering when then i can meet him ):
its been ard 72 hours since i last saw him.
miss him lots ):

back from work at around 4am i guess.
got a complain ):
regular customer says im RUDE when i did follow th standard operation.
WTF !!!!!
well .
aint gonna harp on it anymore !
ARGH.
got a cut on my index finger .
th stupid tiger jug was broken and i didnt realise .
WTF .
ARGHHHHH .

ermm .
bee never update blog lohhs !
wth.
bluff me ):
never mind
shant harp on it ....
never mind.
ask me text or call him.
end up he sleeping.
well ...
never mind .
he's nt well.

5:07 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, March 06, 2009Y

BACKKKKK TO BLOGG !
just got back from work not long ago.
just hang up th phone call with baybee .
he's still sick ):
but m glad tht he made a trip to th clinic to visit th doctor.
hopefully he will recover real soon !
i simply missssssssssssss him alot !
its been quite a couple of hours since i last saw him.
wondering did he eat his dinner and so on ...

well ...
work aint tht bad today.
we'll be starting Dinner Bento Set as of tomorrow {060309}
we've stopped th Dinner Buffet as of {010309}
what a waste ):
no more FREE dinner from Nihon Mura ):
well ...
it might be a good thing though (:
im able to SLIM DOWN =)
hahas (:

recieved my pay cheque
SO SO SO DISAPPOINTED.
only got $600++ only.
cause i've got 3MCs , 3 UPLs.
enough to let me DIE le.
SOBs SOBs .
how am i going to SURVIVE !!!!
RARRRRRRHHHHHH ):

bee wantes me to change job.
he donte like me to work in th nightlife .
im actually considering it too .
cause im abit worn out le .
tired of nightlife.
very no life =)
cant mee up with baybee and all ...
its a sad thing. ):

ever since i've gotten over you , i realise that there are much better choices out there for me.
i've seen through alot of stuffs that i wasnt able to when i was with you.
i guessed i've matured pretty much after leaving you.
and i guessed u've lost pretty much after me ?
well ..
its a both lose situation in th end.
seeing that u still cant get over th fact that we were once ex-lovers,
i feel so sorry actually ...
cause i think u are even more childsh then me .
thanks for teaching me how to cherish and treasure.
i sure do cherish and treasure my current baybee now.
he sure am worth this title more than u do.
thanks anyway for th 4 months of sweet & bitter memories.
all i ever wanted will be my baybee from now onwards.
no one will be as important as he is in my life. ♥ ♥ ♥

{♥ 0345am}

3:45 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, March 05, 2009Y

finally m back to postin after so many days =X
hahas.
realised my blog is dead .

went to th cage with bee and his frens ystd .
quite fun(:
saw them playing soccer .
bee very fierce when playing lohhs.
never give chance de .
ahahas.

after that we went to KALLANG LEISURE PARK .
hanged ard there till 8 plus.
den went over to bee's place till this morning .
came home and slept till 2 plus in th afternoon.
bee is having a fever now ...
hopefully he will be alright ):
bee !
take care of urself !!!!
bee will be sad de !

4:00 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。