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You've heard of my name,
Not my story.
You've heard of what I've done
Not what I've been through.
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If you have nothing nice to say,
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- HONGKONG BUSINESS TRIP-052010
- GETAWAY TO BINTAN-032010
- HOLIDAY TO HONGKONG-012013
- GETAWAY TO BATAM -022013
- HOLIDAY TO BANGKOK-042013
- GETAWAY TO BATAM
- BE MYSELF, ONCE MORE.
sometimes i wish i can have selective memory. sometimes i hope to have selective memory. seeing what is being posted kills me. taking in silently what you have given me, its also killing me. frankly, what have i done to deserve such treatment from you? have i really not done enough?
everything has officially came to an end. i admit whilst posting, my tear dropped again. i donte know whye. everything just comes so naturally to me. emo,tears,upsetness. whatever F***. i seriously donte understand why is it that i can talk to others so freely to ask them not be emo. but when it comes to me, i just cant do it. i really really cant hang in there anymore.
its party weekend for me. PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR ~ went st james. thanks lawerence for signing me in on fri to dragonfly. it was a very last minute thingy. went along with cousin ~ well, lawerence opened a champange @ firefly. his fren had johnnie walker's whisky. didnt took any photos cause phone extremly LOW BATT. well, never mind. went down to dragonfly with him n cousin den took short cut to powerhouse ~ wee ~ powerhouse HUAT ARRS ~ got to know melvin* n skye* there. skye's so kind to come down from powerhouse to my house to acc me for supper. cause i complained being hungry =X
saturday, same place again. POWERHOUSE well. went with lawerence [but of course] & cousin again ~ saw merilyn. dear dear was there too. i practically went crazy with merilyn on the podium. we climbed up the steps n went to th place where ppl is drinking. all of them practically like surround us. n see how we bua each other. LOL. well. dear dear thought i was crazy. yes i admit. im abit crazy. MY WHOLE MIND WAS FULL OF HIM. I CANT GET HIM OUT. i danced all night. went to look for adrain to drink further. IM FUCKING LOST NOW.
IF EVER THERE'S THIS THING CALL TIME-TURNING-BACK. I WOULD USE IT TO PREVENT MYSELF FROM KNOWING YOU. JIAYI, THIS IS HOW MUCH YOU HAVE HURT-ED ME. HAPPY WITH THE RESULTS? I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I TRIED TO PUT UP A STRONG FRONT. I TRIED TO BE LIKE MYSELF BEFORE I KNEW YOU. I WANNA BE BACK THE HAPPY-GO-LUCKY GAL WHERE MY FAMILY DOTED ON. I CANT. EVEN MY MUM KNEW WHAT HAPPENED ON HER BIRTHDAY. SHE DIDNT SAY A SINGLE WORD. NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT. ITS TO PREVENT FROM HURTING ME. DON'T YOU THINK YOU HAVE GONE TOO FAR ? WAY TOO FAR. TILL TODAY. MY HEART IS STILL BLEEDING. BLEEDING SO PROFUSELY. THAT I WISH YOU CAN JUST STAB ME DAMN HARD IN MY HEART. JUST KILL ME AT ONE GO. DONTE TORTURE ME ANYMORE PLEASE. EVERY SINGLE TEAR I DROP FOR YOU CANT BE BACK.
grandma, i always thought you will be here forever with me. but since you aint here anymore. why not bring me away with you? please grandma. take it as a plead from me. i dont wanna suffer here anymore. bring me with you. its hurting me so much. i know you cant bear to see me in this state too. my body is failing on me day by day. just bring me away . away from this place where all the fuckers hurt me. jiayi, can you just stop torturing me mentally. just take a knife, stab right into my heart. n let me die instantly. i will thank you for that.
