♥Evonne.O

Thursday, September 18, 2008Y

im getting more n more stupid . always making baby disappointed with me .

baby, ie noe that im in the wrong. sorry . ie didnt mean to do those things to ue. ie noe it hurts ue . but do ue noe that it actually hurts me more. ie noe ie should do things and judge things using my own emotions. ie noe ie shouldnt. SORRY baby.

cried real hard when ie was hugging baby while he's asleep. cried hard cause he wanted to push me away.ie was very upset by that act. ie cried. baby didnt bothered. so ie left him in his bed , ie went to his table , took a piece of paper and wrote some irritating stuffs on it. baby was woken up by me twice. he didnt really bother abt wad ie was doing plus ie was purposely hiding from him.when ie finally got the things done, he had already woken up. so ie placed the paper under his psp . told him ie wante to go home. baby was so loving towards me. he wanted to send me home. ie insisted to go home alone. he looked at me as though he sensed something wrong. ie hide ....
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not long after , warm tears rolled down my cheeks . ie couldnt hold it anymore. ie was so badly hurt yet ie need to hide it. baby asked me wad happen , why am ie crying . ie told him ie was thinking about grandma which in fact wasnt the real fact. yes , ie was thinking abt grandma. but mostly was baby. caused ie hurt myself so deeply. when ie finally pluck the courage to kiss baby goodbye, ie walked as fast as ie could , as hard ie could , out of his room , his house , to the lift. ie wanted to cry. but ie held back. ie called nick. ie asked a favour from him . ie asked him to chat with baby while ie sms-ed baby, look around your table .
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baby immediately called me. ie REFUSED to pick up. im afraid ie will break down in the cab. ie donte wante to. ie tried to put up a brave front.....he den smsed me. ....

sorry baby , ie admit im weak. im always relying on ue and making ue feel very tired. but do ue still rmb all the sms-es ue sent me ? ie still kept it in my phone ! ie will always rmb wad ue said. im your motivation for ur future. ie will keep it down in my heart.ue say that im ur physical and pyscological pillar. ie will always be there for you baby.

lastly . ie wanna say im reaaly sorry for the incident tonight. ie cant afford to lose ue. ue noe wad ? my heart aches alot till now. ie cant get to sleep cause im thinking of ue while crying.

爱断了双翅膀

心再不会飞翔

4:19 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。