♥Evonne.O

Sunday, September 30, 2007Y

11 more days to 九月初一
which is the date whereby ie m gonna be 舅舅's official 干女儿！
*added on for 30th SEPTEMBER!*
oh ya.
forgotten abt the dream ie had last night.
ie saw grandma.
she told me nt to be sad.
told me to stay happy.
but grandma.
do ue noe that ie m sad cux ue aint by my side.
ie noe ue cant hear or see all these.
but ie still really wanna let ue noe that ie am missing ue this much.
maybe ie should type it out in chinese.
外婆，

您知道吗？

我一直以来会这么伤心难过是因为您。

没有您的这一年多以来，

我都好想念您。

我很希望您能一直陪我走到最后。

但我知道不可能。

因为人终是会老，会死。

但我万万没想到会是这么快。

真的太突然了。。。

您昨晚在我梦中要我快乐，

别再难过。

但我会难过是因为外婆您已经不再我的身边了。。。

grandma, ie really wish that ue were by my side.
ie thank ue for appearing in my dreams last nites.
lending me ur shoulder.
but ie really wish-ed that ue were with me....

*edited @ 0225 hrs*

5:06 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

hellos.
back to blogging.
work was alrite today.
met a nice nice manager.
named ABRAM TENG.
he super funny
at first didnt noe he was the duty manager.
only knew that he was either a manager or supervisor. [cux they wear red-collar shirt]
den when was busy that time.
jux nice ie ran out of plastic carriers.
asked my cashier[kai leng] whether can ask him help not.
she said can [but in joking manner]
& ie really did.
den she was like.
"ooi. never die before arrs. he manager lleahs."
hhahahahahahaes.
he already went to take liaos lorrs.
wad can ie say???

after that.
was eating the sweet yanming bought.
he saw it & said.
"eating in the dark eh.... scared share with me izzit..."
ie was like...
"nah.... give ue eat lorrs."
den he was laughing all the way.
after kai leng went home.
ie moved to pei shan's counter.
den he came again...
this time round searching around the table for sweets.
ie knew it & said
"later ie buy"
after ie bought the sweets.
offered him to it.
he was like...
later arrs.... now nt free...
okays den.
so ie shared with the rest.
later he come back, seeing me eating the sweets.
"EH! ue where can like that. mux share with me!!!"
ie was like telling him that ie jux now give ue ue say later wad...
but he's joking larrhs.
hhahahahahahaes
super good manager rites?

muching onto some stuffs now.
ppl bought it back from M'sia [ie think]
taste quite nice.
cux sweet sweet de.
den maybe oso cux ie hungry.
oh shit...
these few nights keep eating...
confirm gonna gain weight again.
but the good thing is.
when ie eat at night.
ie usually wait till dinner den eat liaos.
fasting like the malays eh?
hhahahahahaes. ((=
oh ya...
ie think my working pass coming soon.
bingquan, yanming & jianlong[last week] got theirs.
ie hope mine & shingyee's will come soon!
den pay oso haven come.
ricky says monday can go down check see got come anot...
so iem going down on monday.
shun bian go check roster.
den inform every single one of them again....
gonna buy sushi tom.
dun care that much!

5:04 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, September 29, 2007Y

SORRY BOY; ie HURT UE SO ie m RETURNING IT TO UE.

yeahs.

ie am eating INSTANT NOODLE AGAIN!

but ie mixed & match-ed the flavour....

bleahs...

mux be creative & original marrhs.

so long nv enjoy e joy of using com,watching tv & eating liaos.

was bad at work today.

that stupid dumb dumb ADHZLIN manager

lan jiao ppl do lan jiao work.

FCUKER lorrs.

me & weekiong go do reject.

den cux alot of stuffs.

so tot of asking bingquan along too.

den that fucker says

"are ue going to do reject or wad?"

ie replied

"do reject larrhs."

den she said

"den how many ppl ue need? 5? or the whole of giant?!"

ie was like....

WTF...

so many things...

2 person how to do????

den nvm...

off me & WK to do reject...

do till halfway

that lj manager says.

dun do. go help cashier pack.

okay.

went to cashier side.

actually we supposed to go off @ 11.45pm de,

den she was like.

"transport wad time go?"

"12.05 larrhs.-ie said.

"den work till 12 den go off."

eh.

wad e fucking business has it got to do with ue?

manager so???

we no need walk into store, queue up change pass meahs.

dumbo.

enough of this stupid manager.

its making me HOT!!!!

hmms.

ie've made up my mind.

ie wanna keep myself enclosed in my own world liaos.

ie wanna push away those ie LOVED.

& those who once LOVED me.

ie m really very SORRY.

ie really dun wanna lead my life like this aniimore...

4:57 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Friday, September 28, 2007Y

today's weather was perfect.
rain-ed in the morning.
was so cooling in the afternoon.
but ie jux couldnt get the mood to be high.
ie was actually very high.
but ie didnt noe wad took place to cause me sad.
okay, fine.
ie noe wad happened.
ie am jux not willing to face it eh.

life moves on even though there is disappointment.
so ie should jux move on with my quiet life.
yeahs.
friends might be not used to it.
but thats me rites.
okay. maybe ie should stop deceiving myself.
ie noe ie m in the wrong for not treasuring.
so ie shouldnt feel sad now.
ie should jux carry on with life & nt think too much.
so ie think ie should apologise here.
ie m very sorry boy.
ie noe ie am in the fault.
dun say sorry to me.
it will only make me sadder.
ie seriously will start to move away.
away from ur life.
ie m sorry.
ie think ue dunno wad ie meant.
its alrite.

ie recently very shag & haggard sehx.
dunno whye oso.
ie think ie am "LOST WITHOUT YOU".
ie dunno whye oso.
ie jux wan back my normal life.
ie dun wan to force myself do things against my wish liaos.
dun wanna decieve myself anymore oso.
ie jux wan to get out of this stupid circle.
whereby my stress is forming a circle ard me.
can anyone get me out of here?

*edited @ 8.37pm*

11:30 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, September 27, 2007Y

或许我真的因该放下过去，放眼未来。
我不因该再执着于过去。
对不起，但我还是想对你说声我真得很后悔放弃你。
我真的用心爱过你。
你说这一切是往事时，我其实感到很伤心。
但我说不出口。
我希望你和她早日有结果。
我真心诚意的祝福你。
ie sincerely wish ue happiness here.
sorry ie dun have the guts to tell ue straight in your face.

2:07 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

wee~
ie am so high & so siianned now.
didnt sleep last night.
ton-ned infront of computer & tv set.
till about 6 plus 7 am.
after that open-ed the door for sis.
went to sleep at abt 7 plus 8 am.
slept till 11 plus am.
so stonn-ed

my dark circles are like dunno wad.
so dark.
can go be panda @ china liaos.
hhhahahahahahahaes.
cook-ed barley jux now.
tom sending to shingyee.
cooking 菊花茶 tom.
hopefully that fri everyone will get to drink ba.
((= smiles.
cux that day drink ming's mum de 凉茶.
den all sot dao....[esp me & yee]
hhahahahahahahaes.

haiish.
ie finally noe wad is the feeling of.
letting the things go & wanting it back.
ie feel so damn stupid!!!!
whye should ie do things to make myself regret!!
aint ie stupid.
aint ie silly.
aint ie dumb?

我终于明白原来一直以来，
我都只是个大白痴。
一个不懂得珍惜的大白痴。

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO HUIFENN!!!!

12:22 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Wednesday, September 26, 2007Y

面带笑容心悲伤。
哭无眼泪无人知。
我的心事有谁知。

最近，我发现我变了很多。
我不懂是不是因为我开始懂得东西越来越多
或者是因为我开始想要回我要的东西。
又或者是因为我受不了这种生活。
我真的越来越不明白我自己了。

又有谁肯愿意来了解我？
为何一直以来都只有我去了解人得份。。。

ie seriously m begining to suspect that whatever ie have done is in vain.
ie really dun wanna lead lyfe in vain aniimore...
ie hate the feeling of being used then ppl forget me.
the feeling jux suck that much man.
ie hope those who can understand me dun sympathise me!!!!

oh ya.
cant believe it man.
ie actually forgotten the fact that ie made ppl wait for me for nearly 5 hrs...
PSPSPS....
seriously...
ie am touched lorrs.
cux no guy actually have the paitence to wait for me so long...
thnx! ((=

*edited*

6:52 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, September 25, 2007Y

as usual.
didnt attend school today ((=.
woke up ealry in the morning.
eyes so sticky.
might be having sore eyes.
rashes back.
so didnt go school
didnt wanna be a monkey at school.
scratching here & there.

saturday was HUIFENN's BBQ.
had a really enjoyable time there.
FENN, sorry arrs... ur earing missing...
teckk was so sweet lorrs.
give her such a big surprise!!!
if only guys in this world half as sweet as him.
den every girl in this world will be as happy as fenn liaos.
fenn touched till cry lorrs....
hhahahahahahahahaes....

siianned.
gotta go liaos...
nth much to update oso...
oh ya. failed maths prelim as usual.
22/100 for paper 2 only...
hhahahahahahahaes.
think can prepare to go ITE liaos...

7:07 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, September 22, 2007Y

it just isnt my day.
ie was so emo.
so unreasonable.
so unrealistic.
so torturing towards myself.

yeah.
its over between me & him.
ie was the on who suggested it.
so?
ie mean.
if a guy isnt serious.
whye drag on rites.

okay.
ie admit.
ie am super sad can?
ie am super useless.
super dumb.
to really believe in him.
wad e.
ie jux dun like talking to a person on phone.
who doesnt answer ue.
aint that irritating???
ie jux hate that dumb feeling.
because ie dun wanna my stead to treat me like that.
ie dun wan!!!!

enough of sad stuffs.
ie admit ie did alot of stupid things.
scalding my hand with cigarette.
hitting against the wall.
but ie jux dunno how to control anymore.
btw.
tom's huifen's b'dae celebration.
wish her HAPPY ADVANCE BIRHTDAY FIRST!!!!
HAPPY BIRHTDAY HUIFEN!!!!!

4:58 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, September 18, 2007Y

wee~~~~
ie m SICK!!!!!

went to see doctor tiish morning @ polyclinic.
met up with shingyee @ there.
thank you my dear.
she help me buy breakfast lorrs!
thank you thank you!!!!

bingquan:
ie m really very sorry that ie left ue.
but ie really dun wanna hurt ue aniimore.
ie really cant forget him jux yet.
ie noe ie am in the wrong.
but ie really cant carry on with my mistakes.
ie dun wanna hurt ue anii further.
n ie dun wanna disappoint ue further.
ie m really sorry.

mervin:
hey guy.
ie dunno wad ue are thinking about.
& ie really wanna noe.
cux ie dun wan our relationship to continue dragging any further.
ie really cant stand it already...
not only me, plus my frens around oso...
please guy.
ie really wanna have an outcome for our relationship.

12:40 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, September 17, 2007Y

hellos.
ie m back to blogging.

went to pray ah ma with lifei cousin today.
her bf is someone who treats her well.
drive car send her around the town.

met up with mum @ eunos.
went to BUGIS with cousin & company.
had a "small" tiff with cousin.
WTH lorrs.
ie was like.
ue wan find ur things, ie oso wanna buy my stuffs.
whye cant we go find ur stuffs first, den go buy my things.
if really cant find ur stuffs.
ue oso cannot say its my fault.

aniiwae.
guess iem really sick.
dunno tom can go school anot.
ie haven prepare history paper 1 lorrs.
SHIT!!!!!

1:31 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Saturday, September 15, 2007Y

wee~
iem back from work!

okay.
ue guys might be wondering where ie m working.
ie m currently a PART TIME PACKER at GIANT TAMPINES.
quite flexible.
their working time.
actually we supposed to work till 12 de.
den the in-charge say can go back at 1030.
so together.
me,shingyee,yanming,jianlong&bingquan.
walked to PASIR RIS WEST PLAZA.[which is not very far away]
went to drink water & slack.
hhahahahahahahahaes.
slack till abt 1153.
went to bus stop.
we went wrong bus stop.
and was so shocked that the last bus was actually at 2352.
den it pass-ed by us lorrs.
den we took another glance at the directory.
den found out we at wrong bus stop.
den faster run to the opp bus stop.
took bus 3.
cux bus 3 got go pasir ris interchange.
den we were like
OMFG. WHYE IS IT STOPPING HERE!!!!
den found out that it actually go there lorrs.
lame rites...

starting that time ie was actually sleeping on bingquan's shoulder.
but after that.
went to the back seat.
and slept on jianlong's shoulder.
WA~
like pillow lorrs.
so nice to sleep.
and shingyee was like all the way sleeping on yanming's shoulder.
took photos as evidence!!!!
hhahahahahahahahahaes.

ie seriously dunno whether m ie happy with wad ie m going through now...
ie really dunno wad ie wan & wad ie m doing.
ie dun wish to hurt anyone else.
if really have to hurt anyone.
ie rather it be me.
cux ie dun wan others to be hurt.
the feeling of being hurt is real painful.
ie dun wan play with anyone's feeling.
but ie think ie m jux too flirt liaos...

ie think my nose gonna drop soon.
ie m sneezing all the way.
using far too much tissues...

*edited*

5:25 PM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Thursday, September 13, 2007Y

hellos!
ie m finally back to blogging!!!!

wee~
yesterday was PRELIM PRACTICAL.
guess ie flunk-ed my chem.
cux ie got things wrong.
bio lagi no need to say.
confirm fail de...
DO EGGPLANT LLEAHS!
funny rites.
do experiment with eggplant.

today's PRELIM ENGLISH.
ie didnt go school.
back was aching all over...
so damm hurt-ful.
went to see doctor at polyclinic.
den came back home.
quite tired.
yesterday slept at about 1 plus.
went to sin tuan.
iem gaining a god-father next month!!!!
yeahs!!!!
HE IS MY XIAO KE AI!!!!!

iem feeling so lousy.
ie dunno whether wad ie should do.
should ie jux leave things as it is.
or should ie learn to let go.
or should ie help them patch up...

ie am confused.
the day ie stop addressing ue as my BABY.
will be the day where ie leave ue.
ie hope if ever there is this day.
ue will not blame me.
cux ie really dun wan ue to sad.
and unhappy being with me.
ie think she suits ue much more better.
she meets all ur expectations.
she cares for ue.
let me noe if ue really wanna be back with her.
ie will help ue.
this is the only promise ie can have for ue

5:10 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Monday, September 10, 2007Y

1.(the person who tagged you is…) -ahgirl.
2.(your relationship with him/her is…) -khaki
3.(5 impressions you have of him/her…) -nice,funny,adorable,sweet,loyal
4.(the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) -scolding people off for me!
5.(the most memorable words he/she has said to you) -take care!
6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will…) -erm. there will never be this day.
7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) -erm. nothing. she's near to perfect.
8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will…) -not care abt her.
9.(if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be…) -if she treats me as her enemy.
10.(the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is…) -make her & chris together forever.
11.(your overall impression of him/her is..) -funny,adorable & sweet
12.(how you think people around you will feel about you) ie seriously dunno. [cux ie present myself differently]
13.(the characteristic you love about yourself is…) -ie am strong
14.(on the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is…) -easily afraid.
15.(the most ideal person you want to be is…) -baby
16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them…) -THANK YOU GUYS!
17.(pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you) -1.winnie 2. huifen, 3.anna, 4.vivien, 5.ahgirl, 6.hazel, 7.choon heng, 8.michelle, 9.shermin, 10. tawan!
(who is no.6 having relationship with?) -jerry seet
(Is no.9 a male or female?) -female
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) -nopes & never. cux they dunno each other.
(What is no.2 studying about?) -currently a secondary school student.
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) -ermm.... ages ago.
(What kind of music band does no.8 like?) -sentimental
(Does no.1 has any siblings?) -yes. elder brother
(Will you woo no.3?) -no. she's my sister!
(How about no.7?) -nopes.
(Is no.4 single?) -no. happily attached to genghong
(What’s the surname of no.5?) -SEAH! my khaki
(What’s the name of no.10?) -tawan teo
(What’s the hobby of no.4?) -being with genghong
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) they dunno each other.
(Where is no.2 studying at?) -HOUGANG SEC
(Say something casual about no.1) -funny
(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?) -nonono
(where does no.9 live?) -jalan pintau
(What color does no.4 like?) -if never rmb wrongly, shld be purple
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) -they dunno each other
(Does no.7 likes no.2?) -confirm no
(How did you get to know no.2?) -KENTUCK FRIED CHICKEN pulled us together.
(Does no.1 have any pets?) -yes. a dog.
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) -nonono.

4:25 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。

Tuesday, September 04, 2007Y

wee~
cooling weather...
nice to sleep....
zZzZzZz...

gotten back from hospital with parents&sis.
went to see medical social worker lorrs.
gotten the card again lorrs.
this thursday got appointment with psy.
lame rites.
morning do EGG.
afternoon appointment with psy.
la kopi.
yeahs!!!!

noe wad?
ie actually didnt go school today...
hhahahahahaes.
went shop shop lorrs.
opps...
no larrhs.
not feeling well.
den met up with shingyee.
went to century square to walk walk.
den found out that arcade wanna hire ppl.
they say need go bugis.
so went to bugis with yee lorrs.
went to fill up the form.
hope will be selected!!!!
very nice job....

siianned...
later going to FT den go cong's hse!!!!
yeahs!!!!
going to stay there
cux tom Dua Li Zi.
den going there to help out!!!!!
hhahahahahahahahaes.
yeah.
yesterday at st 44 there got chiu jiu.
nice one!!!!
heng arrs....
hopefully never sing wrongly.
cong tonites confirm teach me teach till very late de.

oh ya.
http://www.singaporehitawards.sg/Category5.asp
please go vote for TANK!
each ip address can vote 5 times.
please please.
be a good soul....
god will bless ue guys de!!!!
gotta go!!!!

10:25 AM
愛情沒有對或錯，只有珍惜和錯過。