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2011-11-21T06:44:00.003+08:00

Hello PEEPos !

i'm back once again ~~~~

haas ((:

been so long since i last blogg-ed :p

just went to GENTING with babyloves ♥

tho it was only a short getaway before baby♥ gets enlisted,

but i truely enjoyed it ((:

baby♥ is so gonna get enlisted on the 24th of Nov.

sighs.

thereafter, i will be alone for 2 weeks before i get to see him again )):

but it will be our 6th monthsary when i get to see him again !

im soooooo excited !!!!!!

haas !

okay, shall stop here.

nothing much to say also !

2011-07-14T12:50:00.003+08:00

its been long since im back blogging.
making use of my lunch time now to blog alil.

life's been great recently for me.
found my half whom is willing to care & understand for me.
& we tide over our first monthsary already :D

currently am working with NTUC First Campus- My First Skool.
will be starting my diploma in Early Childhood Care & Education- Teaching in October.
am so excited about it.
but i will have lesser time for baby ....

facing young kids every single day aint an easy job.
however, its leaves me with a sense of satisfaction everyday when i end work.
hearing my kids bidding me goodbye with their hugs just warms my heart this much.
okay. shall end here now.
am going to take a short nap =p

from now, till then ...

2011-04-25T21:54:00.003+08:00

29 more days to my 20th .

1 year & 29 more days to my 21st .

am wondering (-perhaps thinking-) how would both birthdays be like ?

would i be celebrating with someone special ?

or would i be spending it alone again ?

attended attachement trial today ! :D

(- at AMK Centre II NTUC My First Skool Campus :D -)

am so over th moon (:(:(:

i hope/wish/pray so badly tht i will be able to get shortlisted.

if i really get shortlisted,

i will be able to go on a diploma fully sponsored by my employer !

but i will then be bonded down 3 years in return.

(-well; guess its worth th bond cos i get to STUDY :D:D:D-)

just ended watching Forensic Heros II .

loving this show to th max despite th fact tht i've watched it soooo many times :D

my eyes are kind of shutting while typing in fact >.<

bo bian, who ask me last night backside itchy donte wanna rest,

watch ghost movie till 5 plus 6 den gam wan go rest.

den 7 plus 8 jiu wake up le.

am into this song recently : 雨一直下 - 张宇

love th lyrics cos it totally describes my feelings.

shall share some of th lyrics which caused me to fall so deep for this song:

- 你爱着他，也许也带着恨吧。

( you love him, perhaps with abit of hatred)

- 为何当初那么傻，还一心想要嫁给他。

(whye are you so stupid in th beginning with th thot of marrying him)

- 就是爱到深处才怨他，舍不舍得都断了吧。

(love till th extent of resentment against him; bear it or not, breaking up is th best option)

- 那是从来没有后路的悬崖。

(its already at th end of th cliff with no more route)

- 就是爱到深处才由他，碎了心也要放得下。

(its only love till th extent into giving in,gotta let go despite being heartbroken)

- 难道忘了爱他的伤已密密麻麻。

(unless you've forgotten the numerous injuries just cos of his love)

- 不要再为了他挣扎；不要再为他左牵右挂；今后不管他爱不爱谁；快乐吗；都随他。

(stop struggling for him;stop caring for him every moment;no matter who he loves next; satisfied/happy;let him be)

kinda meaningful yeah ?

hopefully, (- i pray; tht you would stumble upon this post & understand th kind of heartache im going thru -)

translation credits are from google translation on top of my re-phrasing& paraphrasing :D

hopefully you guys enjoy.

btw, if you guys would wante to listen to this song,

please click here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w7DTlNu-sZs

will be back with more songs tht has a special meaning/ lyrics.

from now; till then.

cya around soon ~

2011-03-19T07:47:00.002+08:00

ELECTROCUTED !!!!!

HELP NEEDED !

LOLs :D

today marks th 5th day tht i have been awake !

i donte know how i managed to do it man.

all i know was days passed like nobody's business ):

left th bloody nonsensical home of mine.

couldnt take all th nonsense & decided to run away from now on

humans, please just leave me alone from now on.

do not try to look for me.

im at NORTH; SOUTH; EAST; WEST; CENTRAL; SINGAPORE.

donte try to look for anyone tht knows me.

even belinda laopo also know tht i will be with people whom none of you know,

goodbye; bintan

2011-03-15T04:00:00.002+08:00

im back from BINTAN !

photos are uploaded @ Facebook.

please stalk my Facebook for latest update =X

in another 6 days time,

im marking a new start to my career.

i found a job which allows me to combine sales;travelling;communication at one go.

i hope this job turns out well.

relationship:

right now at this moment;

i guess im reading too much into certain things and am overly confident.

i guess im dropping into the shit hole that i have created once more.

im sorry ...

i hope that one find day;

i will be able to walk out of the hurt i have;

i will be able to leave without regrets;

i will be able to bid everyone goodbye without tearing.

to him:

im sorry for pressuring you.

sorry ...

2011-03-03T18:09:00.002+08:00

hey people (:

i'm back again for year 2011 !!! (LOLS!)

i begin to realise that my stupid blog is dying down !!!!

alot of things have happened recently.

im going through emotional rollercoaster ...

up down up down non stop ):

currently jobless ):

(actually been out of job since jan =X)

been going in and out of the borders like no body's business =X

counting down to 13 march 2011.

cause .... IM GOING BINTAN !!!!!

LOLS !

shall stop here.

am lazy to type =X

2011-01-01T09:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2011 !!!!

its a brand new year, brand new start.
(to most of the people)
to me, life still goes on and 2011 don't hold any special meaning to me.

at the end of 2010,
i hurt someone.
at the start of 2011,
i was being hurt again.
i kept remembering the kind of hurt that was caused on 27/12/2010.
i can never forget it even a NEW YEAR has begun.
i tried to bid goodbye to yesterday and welcome a new year.
but it just seems to haunt me as though its forever.

i admit,
i am STILL waiting.
i admit,
i am still acting like a FOOL.
i just cant bear to let everything go.
i am still holding on.

i'm sorry if anyone is being hurt by me at the end of 2010.
i hope you will just forget about me and move on.
i am someone that is not worth this love.
i am someone who cant forget about the past.

to: 22766.
i'll still be here waiting ...

2010-09-08T13:35:00.002+08:00

hey people !
its been a long time since i've last updated eh ...
lols
been busy with my new job.
and been falling sick -.-

sort of just gotten used to waking up early in the morning.
too long never wake up early early le lahs
lols =p
been neglecting my LFI.
sorry .
will be back fighting from today onwards.
cause of the project.

didnt sleep well last night.
was thinking about the project through out.
felt the fire burning once more.
i will not let it die down anymore.
because i deserve the income !

to fabian and kenny.
really sorry that i've been neglecting LFI =/
i promise i will be back.
sorry sorry !

2010-08-10T13:19:00.002+08:00

http://www.likin-it.net/index/id/250/

perfect website for people who wants idea for their FACEBOOK status...

[我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望]

2010-08-09T20:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY my MOTHERLAND (:

just ended sis' chalet for her 21st birthday over the weekends (6-8 Aug)
had an all girls outing on the 8th afternoon

life has been as per normal for me
started training at SingTel for MGE
it is fun fun fun !
thats all i could say
because i have a group of fun people as my classmates (:

celebrated sis' 21st birthday at Pasir Ris Downtown East, Costa Sands Resorts
had alot of fun (esp disturbing the boyf)
gambled abit
lost quite abit, but won some too (:
checked out on 8th morning and HOME SWEET HOME

met up with my girls on 8th afternoon
went Far East shopping
girls didnt managed to get anything for themselves
but i managed to get myself a pair of heels !
haas !
for illustration, please refer to facebook (:
thereafter, we proceeded to our secret hideout !

went for dinner
ate like CRAZY !
haas (:
my stomach almost exploded !
wahahahahas.

bus-ed home after everything.
reached home around 11 plus =p
haas
went out again with laopo and zhengwen (:
we went to three places !
1) Henderson Wave
2) Mount Faber
3) Marina Barrage
woots
went barrage to see people fly kites in the middle of the night =p

to be continued ....

2010-07-25T20:01:00.003+08:00

张靓颖-如果这就是爱情

你做了选择对的错的
我只能承认心是痛的
怀疑你舍得我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了何必再强忍

我没有选择我不再完整
原来最后的吻如此冰冷
你只能默认我要被割舍
眼看着你走了

如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒

如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

灰色的天空无法猜透
多余的眼泪无法挽留
什么都牵动感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人原来不是我

我不要你走我不想放手
却又不能够奢求同情的温柔
你可以自由我愿意承受
把昨天留给我

got to know of this song when i was in Hongkong
managed to find this song recently
was quite shocked that not alot of Singaporeans know about it thou
its a very nice song
nice MV too .

went Pasir Ris with laopo last night
had a HTHT .
felt really great
because i finally let out all that is being surpressed in my heart
although didnt managed to cry out
but i still felt much better

went to HKC last evening for dinner
but wasnt a really pleasant one .
had abit of hiccups here and there .
but well...
its over
i should not brood over it
brooding over it also wonte help me to look prettier .
so why should i (:

starting a new work tomorrow.
donte get the wrong idea
i'm still staying on in LFI
but its just that im looking for a day job to prevent myself from rotting =p
hopefully i will be able to stay on till the contract ends. (:
god bless !

2010-07-23T04:48:00.003+08:00

things are changing
human beings are changing
everything is changing ...

i realised that whenever you donte wante something to happen,
it will just somehow or rather take place .
when you have the strong desire for it
things will just come out as the opposite manner.
whye must things happen in this manner ?

went for an interview yesterday morning
yes, i managed to secure a one year contract
but so what ?
i'm still busy busy with my LFI (:
all i need is just another 3 months.
3 months to realising my dreams
3 months more to have the last laugh.
but who understands this
except for people on the same boat as me

people always laugh at us for being silly.
but have they ever thought that they themselves wonte have the final laugh ?
if yes,
whye must they indulge in a self-denial mode ?
whye cant they just wake up from their bloody nonsense idea ?
whye must they keep cheating their own feelings ?

sighs.
whenever i'm looking for a romance
it just wonte happen
but look now
i'm not looking for one
but ended up with a few scandals -.-
i'm not saying its not good
but its just a weird feel

i do admit that i've got a bit of good feeling towards him
but i just donte feel that its right at this moment
or perhaps it wonte be right forever ?
i can accept alot of facts that my family members cant
but what if one fine day
i decided to stay with him for long ?
will my family members give me their blessings ?
i donte think so ... =/

sighs.
god, please show me a way .
if he is the one,
please enlighten me with some hints.
i'm confused =/

2010-07-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

hey people !
im backkk ...

some food for thought:
ever wondered what will we be like 10 years down the road ?
ever wondered what will the world look like 10 years down the road ?
ever wondered will we still be in the poverty cycle or we managed to get out of it ?
ever wondered whye human beings always put themselves in the rat race that everyone is in ?

just some sudden thoughts that came into my mind.
was thinking back on the things i have done for myself for the past 3 years.
and looking back at the time that i've wasted on non-productive stuffs
i regretted.
truely regretted.

now i fully understand what it means to look back and regret or look back and enjoy
WTF .
its totally two different feeling.
when you look back and regret, you will frown and tear in sorrow
when you look back and enjoy, you will smile and tear in joy
and human beings are always structured in the manner whereby they will always look back and regret
for me.
a month plus ago when i decided to step into my new company
i've not regretted.
at least so far
the things that i've been through
i believe that its something i cant get outside (:

well.
i've always believed in something
in life,
its either you choose to agree with fate
or you choose to create your own fate
and i've chosen the second as my option.
because, creating my own fate is much more exciting !

2010-07-14T03:26:00.002+08:00

today, is the day where i broke down.
although it isnt a major breakdown
but i still feel the hitch ):

was reflecting on my situation
talked to kenny about it and i broke down
was wondering at the moment in time,
was everything worthwhile ?
but yet,
i could not find the right way out.

after compressing for a month plus
i begin to realise alot of things just dont work out the way we want
sometimes
you might have put in alot of effort
but you just donte recieve the kind of results
and others who never put in as much
just tend to overtake you
purely just by LUCK,

its kinda de-moralising
i donte know how to put it in words
neither is there any appropriate person to listen to me rant
all i can do is just to rant into my tiny space
which is my blog.
but honestly speaking
how many people would be reading my post now
and feeling the same way as what im feeling ?
if there yes,
please feel free to tag me

if there is nothing else in life to hold me on
i guess i would have no longer be here
all these while
its my drive, goals and dreams that is holding me back
sometimes deep down
dark in the night
i did thought of letting go everything again
but i gave up that crazy idea
cause i wanna make it big in life
and the only way is to hang on once more

2010-07-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

hey people !
its me back to updating once more !

good news.
on the official ending for june pv month, (which is 050710)
i am officially promoted to a REGIONAL MANAGER !
congrats me fast fast !

the reason whye im up to posting today is because of two things,
1) to thank the people who have helped me out
2) to share more about being a RM :)

1) firstly, i would wante to thank my ZZTs: Fabian & Kenny for all the support and the knowledge that they have imparted to me. honestly speaking, without them, i would have given up halfway through my journey in LFI. to me, i was like a lone ranger through out fighting for my own targets. at the moment when i thought of giving up, they were the ones who pulled me up and showed me encouragement and made me believe that it could be done. and at the very last min when i could not find a way out, they were the ones who showed me a way out.
secondly, i would like to thank ShiLing da jie :) she will always be there to keep encouraging me and giving me appreciation for things that i've done ! thank you da jie
thirdly, i would like to thank my team mates: Luwis, Chris, YongMing and others :) thanks for trusting me and believing in me that we could together as a team make this work out !
fourthly, i would like to thank my sidelines like KokWeng, Bryan, JiaHao for giving me the encouragement and fighting on with me. and especially GERALD POH. thanks for your upcoming restaurant treat at HongKong Cafe :) woots.
fifth, i would like to thank this two person specially, Shanon & Cecille. Thanks for introducing me this platform where i could make my dreams out of it. even though you guys might not be here to witness my growth in LFI itself, but without the both of you, i would not have been able to make the first step to even join. Thanks babes.
lastly, i would like to thank every single one who have given me advice & helped me out,like Justin, Jack, Ryan*aka GuangQiu*,Max *aka LTLD*, Gisela, Jackson, Chester, Vic, Alvin, Small Eric, Jerry, Ray, Mike, people who has set down friendly matches with me like Alex, Gerald & Small Eric to motivate me to move on no matter how tough this route seems.

2)being a RM may look easy on the surface. but honestly speaking, i would not say its easy nor its tough. basically, we just got to have this trust and believe in our mentors & uplines that this can be done. all we needa to is to follow whatever they have done, copy and paste and it will be done :) remember, never ever think of looking for a short cut. because our mentors have been there longer then us, they have alrd tried all the different short cuts that we could think of. and always follow through the planning that they have made for us. and you sure wonte miss it :)

anyways, to all people who is in LFI and is reading this, please please please JIAYOU. we only need to endure for another 96 days before we go regional. this is the best time to build up your strong army and fight ! JIAYOU ! we will make this a big thing (:

so basically,
my life right now will be focusing on how to build up my army to be the strongest !
i believe i can do it.
people, you guys can too, do it, if i can (:

2010-07-02T04:39:00.002+08:00

hi people.
its me back again !
just managed to stop myself from playing the Facebook game.
so intend to update my blog before i head for my bed.

recently damn busy with my promotion.
im hitting my regional manager real soon.
but there's alot of hard work to be done definitely.
but im glad that i have my mentors to guide me along in this route
and i have other directors help too.
i guess im happy and contented with my progression now
at least i see results faster than before

im really really looking at saving up
because mommy wanna go on a holiday to HONGKONG :)
i promised i will save up to sponsor abit for her trip =X
haas.
really hope that i will be able to send my parents overseas asap.
its time that they start to travel.
and not work anymore :)

its been sometimes since i've talk about my personal life too.
yep, not long ago,
i've had a crush on someone who is alrd attached.
but no worries,
its just a CRUSH.
i've gotten over with it
just waiting for my MR.RIGHT to come by
i believe he will come by very soon.
*donte ask me whye, its just my gut feeling =p*

anyway,
peeps.
i got to go to sleep now.
been cultivating this bad habit of sleeping in the wee hours
den wake up damn late.
but luckily
recently got ALARM CLOCK call me to wake me up
around 11 i will be woken up by the call !
haas !

2010-06-15T20:15:00.002+08:00

hihi !
back with more updates of my life ! (:

my current plan for my life:
.Toyota Camry for my DADDY by 2011
.Mercedes SLK Black exterior, Blood Red interior by 2011
.Audi R8 Matt Blue exterior, Black interior by 2012
.Parents to retire by 2013(latest)
.Europe Trip in June 2011
.Driving license by 2011
.Condominium for my whole family by 2012
.Mont Blanc Pen
.LV Wristlet
.Gucci Watch
.Hermes Bag by Regional Director Promotion

sounds cool right ?
WOOTS ~
anybody dare to dream as big as me ?
LALALALALALA!!!!

2010-06-09T18:05:00.002+08:00

didnt went to work today
problems problems and problems
when will all this problem stop coming to me?
tomorrow?
the day after?
or never?

went to purchase our new home yesterday at TPY HDB HUB
stupid place
wait so long
but managed to get a flat of our choice :)
cool !
haas.
most probably am moving by end of the year -.-
so fast.
need leave TAMPINES le :(

anyway
am pondering shld i leave or shld i stay ?
sighs.
hard decision:(
but no worries
im sure i will come to a decision real soon.

2010-05-27T18:47:00.002+08:00

heyo people !
i'm back to posting !!!
excited ? lols !

ok.
down to serious stuffs
just came back from hongkong on 2305 at 3pm.
sort of like celebrated my birthday on the plane by sleeping -.-
well, still glad that i spent my birthday in two countries & the plane !
hongkong & singapore !
woots ~

went to hongkong for 3weeks on a business trip.
helped set up the latest country in APPCO !
was a nice & great experience over there.
spent alot of quality time with the different owners & people
learnt alot from this trip :)

celebrated my birthday thrice this year
first was at LKF with Joann
second was with my family
& lastly with EDEN CUBE !!!
thanks eden cube for giving me such a big surprise on monday itself.
although its a belated celebration,
but i still appreciate it alot.

as for the photos for the HongKong trip
please refer to my facebook photo album: Appco & Appco II
its still in the midst of processing though :p
enjoy !

2010-01-15T01:04:00.002+08:00

what have i done wrong .?

do i deserve these SHITs ?

whye the FARK is these happening

when i begin to go back to my normal life .?

LEOW JIN CHANG ,

stop bothering me please.

stop your threatenings

i had enough of your mental torture !

you succeed in making me afraid of you

you succeed in making me mentally unbalanced

but please

all i wante is just my normal life back

i wanna go back to studying

i wanna go back to my normal life before i knew you.

i'm already so stressed up

i'm on the verge of breaking down alrd.

can't you just stop your nonsense .?

its been hard for me to forget about what happened

& move on

now, by doing this

you forced me into a dead end

donte let me off yeah

just wait and see

we shall see who's the winner in the end.

2010-01-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

its been sucha long time since i last updated yeah .
LMAO .
haven got the time so didnt really updated my blog.

life nowadays aint very bored.
everyday go facebook,
get to see some DUMB idoit trying so damn FKING hard to arouse my attention,
trying to get me frustrated.
tell you what dumbo,
i wonte fall for your trick .
&& stop being such a sour grape ,
you will realise that without me,
your life will be like HELL .
damn fking hell for you.
the messages you send are so damn entertaining lahs
give me some stuffs to do.
makes my brains move ~
WOHOOOO !

well,
just applied for JAE 2010
hopefully,
i'll be able to get in yeah.
aint gonna be a stubborn as the previous years.
will just settle down with higher nitec before poly.
sound good too .
most probably will get into leisure & travel operations.
hope so, pray hard !

just finished colouring my nails.
got nothing better to do.
am in need of a part time job.
HAAS.
changing to part time cause i wanna go back school le :)
congrats me okay :)
pray for me.
i'll thank you guys.

P.S : to the dumbo who still cant get over the fact that its a SUPER clean breakup between us:
its super pointless & meaningless for you to do all those things
using underhand method,
you think i'll be afraid of you .?
so what you've been staying at this area for your past 20 years .?
LMAO. i believe in justice
& not in people like you.
wondered how you got into the damn police force -.-
disgrace to the police force ..
well,
let me teach you something
stop crying over spilt milk
things turned out this way because of your doings
you did not learn how to treasure the chances i gave you yeah .?
so be it .
there's no turning back in this FKING relationship.
& tell you, stop labelling me coward,
i'm not afraid of getting pregnant,
just DONT wanna be pregnant with YOUR kid,
understand .?
this is how much you've disgusted me with your actions :)
GROW UP dude
reflect on your doings before you lecture me .
i guess i'm even more mature den you.

2009-12-12T11:41:00.002+08:00

hey !
say congratulations to me yeah .?
i'm a FREE bird once more .
maybe i should have become one long ago .
just had enough of all the nonsensical stuffs .
got so worked up till the extend of my right side of my body got so FKING weak.
got admitted into the hopsital for like 3-4 day -.-

well,
nothing much for the time being .
am going to stay single for quite some while .?
hope so uh .?
sick & tired of all the nonsense i gotta face in a relationship .
it's just getting a little over board ,
a little too much .
well ,
shan't elaborate more .
am just going to enjoy the rest of my FREE BIRD life :)
cheers !

2009-12-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

finally back on blogger again ~!
its like 987654321 years lahs -.-
ROFL .

hmms .
work has been fine for me .
so far so good uh .
at least still can cope lohs .
gonna go on long holiday soon .
company will be closing from chirstmas eve till next year !
YIPEE ~
keex.
can stay at home rot .

i'm thinking shld i attend the event by held by WG this 12th dec .?
the free party is back again .
but i promised my silly not to go club anymore uh ...
haiiyo.
idk eh .
sighs .

hmms .
never mind
shall let the thought die off -.-
LMAO
boring siols
needa go back to work tomorrow le .
sians ~

2009-11-26T16:27:00.002+08:00

been neglecting my blog nowadays !
LMAO .
working working working non stop.
if not is accompanying boyf everyday .
:)

sians sia .
these few days on MC .
not feeling well .
FLU, HEADACHEs, MUSCLE ACHEs.
WTF -.-
the flu virus is back ,
everyone got to take good care of yourself !
donte let the flu virus come knocking your door !

sighs .
i really donte know .
i just feel that ...
if only , love was simpler & easier to understand .
i might be more relaxed .
really .
im so STRESSED up right now .

2009-10-25T02:44:00.000+08:00

been neglecting my blog for like 987654321 days .?
lols .
shall do a overall update =.=

06102009
"Accident"
rating = 3.5/5
watched with jianlong , shingyee , laopo and sis .
yanming didnt join us cause he got attachment .
and he wonte be able to make it in time .

had pizza hut for lunch on that day .
i ordered a sausage craze bake rice .
LMAO .
was so full lahs .
forgotten to take photos ):
enjoyed the lunch date with babes that day (:

carried on with shopping aftermath .
LOLS !
didnt bought anything much in particular =P
haas .

19/10/2009
"Sorority Row"
rating = 3/5
watched with laopo and shingyee .
LMAO .

had KFC for lunch that day .
was so FULL and BLOATED up lahs .
the movie wasn't as great as we thought .
cause the ending kind of suck .?
lmao .

been working for the past few days .
since friday if i never remember wrongly .
was on the morning shift =.=
couldnt sleep the night before .?
forced myself to go sleep at 1130pm .
end up wake up at 130am =.=

so went to work without having proper rest ...
ended work at 6 .
RUSHED home .
had a quick shower .
dinner .
and ... *POOF*
into my LALA land .

wake up at 7am this morning .
haas .
went breakfast with parents at 139 round market there .
started work at 1130am (i was supposed to start work at 3pm)
work till 12am .

tonight's function was for NUS school of science alumni .
lols .
so i actually served a bunch of UNCLES and AUNTIES .?
but well ,
they were great guests !
and i love this table of guests (:

did major turnover for tomorrow's wedding lunch -.-
FUCK that manager on duty lahs .
i HATE HIM !!!

will be bringing mum to buffet lunch later on .?
lols .
den will head to work at 6pm .
still wondering whether should i work till closing ,
or should i work till 11pm .?

will be meeting my babes for movie session soon .
haas !

2009-09-28T02:36:00.002+08:00

The Ugly Truth
rating = 5/5 !
haas .
caught this comedy with shingyee and belinda laopo
its defintely worth your time in the theatre (:
its a story saying and SHOWING what's the truth about guys =X
lols .

lots of funny stuffs took place in the theatre lahs .
cause we guys took Row C, 9-11's seats .
den another two guys took 13 and 14 .
laopo actually wanted to shift over to 12 cause the ppl infront of her is blocking her view .
but the guy at 12 acually had his arm at sit 12 .
so we actually joked about if laopo were to sit and his arm break .
he would become the new era of Yang Guo
whereas laopo will become the new era of Xiao Long Nu.
LOLS ! =/
and i actually laughed till the extend that my stomach cramp .
and i teared .
i guess the guys also did notice it .
after the show ended
laopo actually smelled something .
the guy at seat 8 FARTED ~
HAAAAAS ~

ended work at 6 today .
didnt went along with the group to street circuit .
i guess i injured my knee :(
work in the kitchen today instead .
after work ,
went cineleisure with laopo and shingyee
had hongkong cafe for dinner
ordered a curry chicken with rice for myself.
shingyee had chicken chop baked rice
whereas laopo had curry chicken with bread .
we ordered prawn paste chicken to share .
and i actually forgotten to take pictures ):

walked around cine .
got myself a mickey mouse handphone pouch in red ,
laopo's in gold . (:
dinner was defintely great .
but some unhappy things took place .
donte wish to mention about it.
cause it spoils the atmosphere here (:

shall be attending 4e2'07 's chalet later on (:
will be going to make an exchange to my ez link card too .
ITS the last call already !
WEE ~
feeling so damn excited lahs .
it's been a year since i catch up with my peeps (:
love to see them (:

hopefully my knee will recover soon .
guess i overworked it the past few days .
shall take good care of it !

2009-09-25T00:36:00.002+08:00

I Love You , Beth Cooper
sounds like a nice movie right .?
shall rate it 2.5/5 bahs ,
got funny and boring parts .
lols .
caught it on tuesday afternoon
after my job briefing for F1 .
with belinda laopo , shingyee and jianlong .
lols !

after that went home ,
realised WORLD WAR 3 just ended .
then went in Msia with mum .
then spent at night out with mum , sis and cong .
LOLs .
stayed at 445 the whole night till 7 am .
-.- (went homeless ): )

went sintua last night .
had a lot of jokes lahs .
ah pao was like saying
"eh , got new remedy for sickness ."
den we were all like "what what .?"
he then replied :
-take 2 panadol
-a cup of warm water
-2 teaspoons of the joss stick ash
-a few piece of joss paper .
LOLS lahs ....

then never mind .
was talking about another topic.
den another joke came out
ah pao was like saying .
work F1 ahs .
den donte waste .
cause tickets to F1 are expensive
when the car pass by rememeber TARIK the gas in !
@##%@!%%&&

need wake up at 6 later on .
got work at 10 -.-
went jogging with belinda just now .
lols .
didnt ran much also .
but both of us realised we stinked .
so went 445 for snack den went home to BATH !
lols .
got to go now .
quite tired le!
nights ~

2009-09-22T01:51:00.002+08:00

back to blog (:
haas .

am on phone with JH now .
donte know whye he suddenly call me also
haas .
he sound so moody .
sound so unlike himself .
donte know what's wrong with him too .
seems like he is suffering from memory lost .
-.-

have this very familiar yet strange feeling towards him .
donte know how to describe also
just like weird and awkward like that .
donte know whye also
was actually happy that he talked to me on msn .
but ...
donte know lleahs
like those couples after seperation den never contact.
den after a very very long time den suddenly contact back again
den will have this very weird feeling . -.-

2009-09-14T17:38:00.002+08:00

COMEX 2009 has ended !
and it also means that my sufferings has ended ! =P

got to know quite a few fun people there (:
mainly :
- cristofer
- winsur
- ruby
- hequan
- jason
- cheryl
- joey
- jimmy

after these few days of work .
i earn quite a few injuries .
the signage kept felling and hit my head ):
my thigh got a VERY VERY big patch of bruise .
my index finger got cut .
i was like wth lahs .
work four days only .
so many injuries =/

i nearly cried just now lahs .
cause got one dumb person .
tell me
"i with my girlfriend now"
WTF !
i donte know what's gotten over me .
but i know defintely its not just pure friend's feeling .
WTF !
what am i thinking .?
what is happening .
what is going on .
i can't seems to control myself anymore.
HELP !

2009-09-09T17:44:00.002+08:00

back to blogging again (:
and i missed out baby yvette's birthday ):
AWWWWWWW ~
anw , happy belated birthday to you (:

the thing that im worried about is about to come .
sighs .
i guess i just have to let things go naturally .
pray hard !
nothing will happen de (:

going to tua later on .
woke up at 3 today .
slept at 5 plus last night .
finished my show .
like FINALLY ! *yipee*
going to start on new show soon .
heh (:
three cheers !

shall be working at IT fair from tom onwards
haas .
i'll be at level 6.
any peeps who wanna drop by and visit me .?
LOLs
just text me uh .
and ... and ... and ...
remember buy food for me when you come !
LOLS =X

2009-09-08T18:56:00.002+08:00

its 8th september today .
how's life been for everyone .?
lols .

went sentosa yesterday with belinda laopo
and of course her boyf lahs .
was actually supposed to meet up at 1230 de .
end up i sleep till 1 plus .
LOLs.
reached sentosa at 4 plus .
left there at 6 plus .
-.-
first time ever i spent so little time there ):

proceed to vivo !
yipee .
went to watch "FinalDestination 4"
will only rate it 4/10
cause the ending sucks .
still prefer the previous ones .

while watching halfway
sandy sms-ed me
ask me reach tamp by 9 -.-
lols lahs .
its like 8 plus i still sitting inside cinema lohs .
well .
but got back to tamp at 9 plus lohs.
end up sandy de friends are late .
LOLs

well .
my stupid DVD player on my laptop is giving me problems .
last night still can use .
now cannot use le ):
and im almost done with my show ):
sighs *shakeshead*
who can help me with it .?

the date is nearing
and im really afraid .
afraid that what has been on my mind will take place .
i donte wante this to happen
but yet when i saw your couple rings ,
i realised that i haven gotten over you .
my heart stil ached .
but the pain is getting lesser .
i hope that as time pass by ,
the pain will be gone .
i wonte forget you ,
i will keep you as part of my life memories,
and use it as a motivation to keep me moving in life.

PS : going to watch BloodTies with laopo .
wanna watch The Phobia 5 .
anyone .?

2009-08-29T01:07:00.002+08:00

D
this might be or might not be the last post that your name will appear here .
it all depends on what fate has in store for the both of us .
i saw u smiling so sweetly to her
just like how you did to me last time.
i knew you were into her .
my heart ached so much
till the extend that i felt like crying on the spot .
but i didnt.
i donte wanna drop a single tear infront of you anymore .
it just shows that how weak i am .
and i will not show to you how much you mean in my heart .
cause i donte wante you to feel guilty after these
i really hope that you will find your future soon .
as for me
i will just try to move on with life .
thanks for the memories .

2009-08-28T03:06:00.002+08:00

hihi (:
im back again !

just ended work at banquet at 1 plus am .
lols .
set up the whole ballroom for tom use .
den went for supper at canteen .
WOOTSS ~
the food is great .

im effing tired now lahs .
but my stomach is still growling .
despite the meal i had 2 hrs ago .
sighs *shakeshead*
high metabolism i guess .
puberty mahs .
HAAAAS .

went to pass laopo cardigan after i alighted infront of prata .
the weather now is superb for sleeping =X
haas .
just rained not long ago .
but the sad thing is my hair is still wet .
cause i just bath mahs .
so i smell SUPER NICE lahs .
LOLS (:

actually thought of gg supper with friends de.
but it seems like no one feels like getting out of their house cause of the weather .
lols .
work was great today overall .
first time doing western dinner .
and i swear .
the desert is so DAMN DELICIOUS lahs .
some of the guest actually gave it a miss .
whereas some actually didnt even eat .
WTF .
food wastage ):

D , have you been following my blog lately .?
i guess not right .
you are so busy .
till the extend that you only sleep for 4 hours daily .
i really pity you .
i really wish that i can share some of your burden .
but i'm in no position to do that .
i really wish that nothing took place 9 days ago .
and we are still enjoying our days together holding our hands .
the sense of security you gave me is so huge that even till now ,
i can still remember it so vividly .
everything is so clear in my mind .
as though nothing has took place .
every morning when i wake up ,
the first thought was to text you .
every single time when i wanted to go out ,
the first thought was informing you .
every single time when my mood is bad ,
the first one i thought of was you again .
but i know its an irrevisible change .
the fact that we've choosen a mutual breakup is always there .
the fact that the tears i dropped for you has been never ending is always there .
but now ,
i can only turn to my blog ,
and rant it out here .
hopping silently in my heart that ,
one day ,
we will lock our hands once again .

2009-08-27T01:51:00.002+08:00

back with my nonsense for the day .
lols -.-

basically
did nth much of meaning today .
fell asleep infront of my com with the lappy on.
woke up at 6 plus to shut down .
and then sleep till 4 plus .
lols -.-
bath, had dinner with parents and went to collect my flats !
heh .
love it lots (:

aftermath ,
went to sintua .
reached ard 6 plus i guess .
did a whole lot of things
like preparing the ink.
make till my whole hand black black -.-
stayed till 11 plus den went off .
daniel ah kor came to fetch us (:

went to meet up with belina laopo .
she is having the worse time now .
i've never seen such unreasonable guy can .
so what if she's going to hold a higher qualification than you .?
its for her own good .
my godness
if she's not going to study now ,
den when .?
till the day when she turn old .?
or till the day when people starts to comment her .?
its impt to have qualification in singapore .
FKING important .
no one has the right to stop her from studying .
not even her parents .
what right do you have .?!
@#@!$$^%*%^*&!

sighs.
it's been 8 days .
and yet .
i still cant let go .
i may look like im alr on the surface .
but no one knows what its like to cry for no reason .
my thoughts wasnt about him .
but just some little things can make me think of him .
and then the tears came along .
i kept wiping it off ,
but it just keep coming .
till the extend that i do not feel like wiping it off anymore.
D , is there really no chance we can be together again once more .?
i promise , this time round ,
the feeling will defintely be right .
whye must you be a coward .
face yourself .
the feeling is always right .
but you claimed that its not cause you haven gotten over M
stop using this as an excuse to hurt me.
seriously ..
im not the only who feels this way .
even my friend ,
also says that the feeling is always there
just that you chose to hide from it .

somehow ,
the things that we've done before is living in my mind .
the places we've been to before,
the words and sentences that you said to me before .
how we held our hands in public ,
how we kissed each other in a park ,
how i indulge in lying on your shoulder ,
how i talk to you about our future ,
how you told me what your future dreams are like .
i can remember even single detail .
the way you encourage me to go back to studies ,
the way you quarrelled with elvis just because he kept pestering me .
the way you hug me ,
the way you look at me .
every single thing ,
its living in my mind every single second .
i just cant forget so easily .
im sorry .
i know that i promised you that i'll stay strong
but i cant .
im breaking down anytime .
i need you by my side D
seriously ,
i need you by my side .
im seeing the signs of breaking down .
its exactly like what took place 2 years ago .
cry cry cry cry non stop.
and finally when i couldnt take it .
i chose the easy way out .
but i didnt die.
i donte wante this to happen again
honestly .
I DONTE WANTE THIS TO HAPPEN AGAIN.
will you stay by me .?
and walk with me through this journey .?

2009-08-26T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY D !
may all your wishes come true (:
stay young , handsome and cheerful as ever (:
friends forever !
hope you enjoy your nights out today !

anw .
went to work today .
was fun !!!!
did lunch buffet , and then turnover .
prepared for tml's lunch buffet .
180 PAX !
cleaned dinner forks , dinner spoons .
desert spoons , desert forks ,
teaspoons , teacups , saucer , multi purpose glasses .
lols (:

sighs .
belinda laopo say that she not working this friday .
cause of some reasons .
never mind .
shall go alone ):

anw ,
bought my flats .
going to collect tml afternoon .
like finally (:
but my pay gone le ):
nvm ,
thurday working again .
den will have pay le (:

what shall i get for D for his birthday .?
he ask me not to get him anything cause i not working .
but i got work part time ahs .
sighs
*shakeheads*

2009-08-24T00:57:00.001+08:00

my blog's hungry .
and im here to feed it :)

D asked me to stop waiting .
i guess what he said was right .
sometimes ,
friends are better off than couples .
we are able to talk more freely as friends .
no stress or whatever .
so i guess .
i shall just move on eh .?
everyone is asking me to do this .

didnt went to work today -.-
wasted my 13 hrs standing there yesterday .
cause no pay ):
sins 1/2 can.
sighs .
nevermind .
blame myself .
cause i got this headache .
den overslept .
lols !

anw ,
happy 21st birthday to Hazel , Raymond and Leon :)

2009-08-21T19:32:00.003+08:00

here to feed my blog's craving :)

went to visit grandma .

but went to meet up with my uncle and granddad first .

bus-ed to interchange t take train first .

cried -.-

im so fking useless can ....

just that stupid song ,

"Have You Ever" by S Club 7

i teared .

on the bus .

on the train towards city hall .

i teared again .

WTH .

i am so fking useless lahs .

promised not to tear .

and yet i keep tearing .

while watching show last night .
it was supposed to be a funny thing
but i tear again .
for no rhyme or reason ,
i keep tearing
i tear at every single thing which could bring memories of you to me.

i promised to be stronger .

i promised to be more sensible .

i promised to wait silently in a corner .

but it seems that im losing out.

everything just seems to go in the opposite direction of what im doing .

but i believe,

that with the power of the love i have for you ,

i will be able to overcome all the obstacles infront of me.

this is because ,

i strongly believe .
time will prove everything .

i donte care whether i will face any objections anot ,

all i know is ,

you , D , is VERY VERY IMPORTANT to me .

i'm mentally prepared to face the objections .

i'm prepared to walk down this tough road myself .,

or maybe , you D, will be by my side ,

walking together with me hand in hand :)
*5 more days*

2009-08-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

it seems like im so hardworking this few days uh .?
LOLs .
of course lahs .
i wante to update my daily thoughts here .
'll never know when D will be reading my post :)

did nothing much of use today .
slept till 4pm -.-
pig me =X
anw ,
went to eunos today with family .
aftermath went to 445 for supper .?
or rather a late dinner
saw D there .
heart raced .
but i donte know what did it raced for .
*sighs*

shall be meeting up with yulin baby tml :)
its been like 987654321 months that i havent been catching up with her.
heh .
but before that needa go visit grandma first.
so shall turn in early tonight .?
we shall see bahs .

haven been getting a good night sleep .
was wondering and pondering over issues that have been resolved .
been reading this book - To Forget You by Low Kay Hwa
this isnt the first time im reading this book .
its like the 54321 time .?
lols .
a few things inside the book keeps ringing in my head .
- "if there's love , there's hope."
- "love; it can make you smile for the rest of your life , but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life."
- "why are we always taking the risk , and even plunge futher into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow .?"
- "what matters most is not how long the love will last , but how deep it has been."
- "you don't forget true love , you just don't remember."
i actually offered to lend D this book .
but since he got no time to read it ,
i will just post up those that is necessary here .
cause , its because of all these things that rings in my mind ,
which made me pluck up the courage to offer this book to you .
but since you have no time .
i shall summarise it bit by bit here .
because , i believe that you will read my blog someday :)
and i believe the things that im doing will win you back bit by bit
and by that time ,
we will hold our hands together once again .
ave maria
*5 more days to your birthday*

2009-08-20T01:41:00.000+08:00

*some minor eidts for the previous post .*
i got together with my current guy a few days ago
so far ,after JY;
no guy was able to give me this huge sense of security
till now , i found him <33
i will never wanna let him go .
thats whye im doing so much things ,
just for the sake of building our future .
i wante this to work out :)
yep, i did found him .
but for this ,
i needa wait .
reason behind ,
belinda laopo know it best .
i'll never let go of you ,D
i'll be here ,
right at the spot where we started everything ,
just to wait for you .
i will show you in actions ,
instead of words . <33

its a hurtful issue afterall .
i donte wish to mention it here .
we did not breakup or something like that .
both of us just needed more time to cultivate this feeling :)
guys ,
im alright .
REALLY ALRIGHT .
nobody is going to worry for me alright .?
not even YOU , D
no one is at fault .

went dinner with D this evening
heh . :)
was fking full after that meal lahs . =X
he treated me like a pig can .
keep asking me to eat =p
aftermath ,
went to sintua .
saw a girl ,
older than me .
but in my previous plight .
talked to her .
hopefully she will change and listen .
its still not too late if u wanna turn back .
trust me :)

the chinese 7th month is here .
grandma's 3rd year anniversary is going to be here in 12days later .
1st sept .
i really cant bring myself to accept that grandma has been gone for 3 FKING years.
after grandma's anniversary,
mommy's birthday will be here .
12th oct .

visted granny today at TTSH .
she's left with bones and skin .
i really mean it .
my heartached .
but i didnt mentioned much .
i really wante to make things right once again .
REALLY .
i regretted so much .

am i handling things and emotions in the right way .?
D , i know you will be reading this .
i really wanna make things right once again .
i feel so FKING lost now .
no one knows how 'm feeling now .
no one knows what i want now except for you .
but ., we need the space and time to cultivate out the right feeling .
'll show you what i said ,
through my actions .
'll tell you that you did not choose the wrong person .
'll show you that everything that i promised you will be done .
all these ,
are my promise towards you .
for the sake of me changing into a better person ,
and for the sake of ~~our~~ the future .
i really really treasure you alot ,
and yes ,
you are someone who is VERY VERY important to me.
i didnt dared to tell you cause i donte wanna add on burden to your life.
but it was untill just now ,
when i silently thought over things ,
i realised .
you have already took up the whole space in my heart .
I LOVE YOU <33

2009-08-19T02:22:00.001+08:00

hi all .
im back (:
like finally duhs . -.-
anw .
alot of things took place recently.
it cost me a r/s which i treasured alot .
its not that type of BGR thingy .
i donte wish to harp on it either .
sighs .

anw .
am attached.
everyone was shocked .
lols :)
belinda laopo told me
"u changed alot of this guy"
yep i did .
im in the process of being a good girl.
trying to cut down on CIGs,
trying to cut down on contacts with guys .
and most importantly ,
i promised not to drink .

it seems that i treasure this guy alot isnt it .?
i've never had this urge before
it seems that i've got no one to turn to .
its not like in the past ;
i ~~got~~ my bitch .
everything just disappeared in a moment.
*POOF* and off it went.

i got together with my current guy a few days ago
so far ,
after JY;
no guy was able to give me this huge sense of security
till now , i found him <33
i will never wanna let him go .
thats whye im doing so much things ,
just for the sake of building our future .
i wante this to work out :)

life's been teaching me alot of lessons recently.
i realised i've missed out so many good things in life.
i realised i've missed out in alot of people's life.
i hope that now that im turning back ,
its still not too late .
i wante everything to turn out right .
i wante my life to be back on the right track .
i wante everything to be back in its original shape.
i hope im able to do so .
may god give me that kind of determination
i know i will.
for the sake of our future.
baby , iloveyou <33

2009-08-04T20:45:00.003+08:00

am i a prisoner or something like that .?
every single movement of mine is being restricted.
every place i go, im being followed.
WTF .
im old alrd alr.
get your senses right.

yep.
i might have done somethings wrong.
but there isnt such a need right .?
im being cut off contact from the outside world.
phone confiscated.
being grounded at home.
aint this enough .?
yes,
you all may say that i still young.
but i am able to look after myself right .?

say till so nice,
wanna give me another chance.
end up leas .?
fking treat me as a wad .?
young kid .?
or someone who is with down syndrome .?
please.
i had enough.
im going crazy soon !

sighs.
at home use youtube also wrong.
WTF .
idk lahs.
maybe like what i used to say.
in the whole whiteboard,
once there is a black dot.
everyone will only focus on the black dot.
sighs*
wonte talk about this anymore.
just hope that i will regain my freedom soon.

went to TTSH to visit my grandma today.
she wasnt in very good shape
*so am i* =/
just hope that she will recover soon .?
thats all i can do.
granddad gave me money.
but was being returned by mum. =(
sighs.
so from today onwards.
im a penniless IDOIT.
ROFL .
the past EVONNE is GONE.
*POOF* & gone...

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ฉันควรมีรู้จักก่อนหน้านี้ .
Thinking back
Should I give up.
I do not want things to turn out this way.
But I have no choice.
If I can turn back time,
I would choose not to know you.
Because your action makes my heart hurt.
I should have known earlier.

2009-08-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

to all fellow peeps !
DO NOT TEXT OR CALL ME THIS FEW DAYS TILL I PUT A NOTICE HERE
MY PHONE IS BEING CONFISCATED.
FOR SOME DUMB REASONS -.-

knn .
everyone chooses to sentence me to death
not giving me another chance
yes i know.
i did something very wrong.
but
at least give me a chance can .?
let me explain.
or at least.
let me finish up my things.

i got one whole lot of stuffs to be done.
one whole lot of mess to clear up.
think what.
i everyday stay out very fun ah .?
i trying to prove things and clarify things.
whye no one choose to believe me .?
WTF .!

without my phone ,
im as good as dead .
WTF -.-
sians lahs,
cannot call ppl and complain. ):

recently quite into a few thai songs .
Ruk Sam Sao && Dai Yin Mai
free go youtube search for it ba (:

2009-07-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

haas (:
finally back with some overdue and new pics (:
those overdue pics are those which i work in Singapore Expo.
those can whoring pictures and group photos (:

new pics are those that i took with baby girl (:
born on 2nd july 2009 (:
so happy that a new life has been brought to this life.
she is so tiny can ):
6 pounds plus only .
the size of my one arm .
so tiny ...
but very cute (: (: (:

gonna go get some baby's stuff for baby girl real soon (:
just gotten my pay not long ago (:
hopefully my pay will help me survive till next pay .
but hopefully next pay gt money too uhs ...
if not confirm die =X
god ...
please help me uhs .
let me find a part time job with stable income soon (:
hehs (:
no more FULL TIME job for me.
tiring and non flexible .
maybe a few more months down the road when i have enough rest.
or maybe ...
maybe when i finish my studies.

sometimes in the middle of the night.
i would wake up in fear .
fearing that i will not be able to continue my studies anymore.
i donte wanna live to regret .
i wanna complete my dips .
waking up in fear ...
im afraid i cant see you anymore .
i still wanna befriend with you.
i donte wanna lose a good friend.
i still wanna go out like that time we go to OCH
i wanna enjoy joking with you
only you are able to make me smile and laugh right inside from my heart
we are still friends right ?

my baby girl and me (:

Singapore Expo , Hall 6 teammates, CommunicAsia

2009-07-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

heh .
am back to posting again (:
finally uhs ?
didnt went to work today.
having bad headache ):
think its my migraine attack again ):

yep ...
tml is my off day .
haas .
so fun (:
but baby cant meet me ):
he got school tml ...
but ...
im meeting my another BABY !
yulin (:
so damn long never see her alrd (:
like finally (:

went to changi meet kai and bitch just now.
actually wanted to go och de ...
but ....
aiiya .
long story .
haas (:

shall stop posting first .
my migraine attacking me le ):
going to rest .
must enjoy my off day tml (:

2009-06-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

yo !
im finally back to my blog again.
it looks so DEAD =.=
haas.

am still fine working at my new workplace
except for the fact that i got two new cuts.
one on my thumb
one on my toe
=.=
careless ehhs .
haas.

emmm .
good news or bad news ?
im attached AGAIN (:
to someone ....
lols .
wonte post out the photo n name so soon .
later die off ...
haas .

i think im going to get another hair cut soon.
this hair cut is making me irritated .
shory short den long long .
WTF uhs .

anw.
something just happened to make me pissed off
my pay ,
supposed to come into my account striaght
but end up come cheque
WTF !!!!!

2009-06-20T02:35:00.000+08:00

im back once again (:
currently at leon's place .
with theresa , leon and ruixian .
drinking and doing nothing
haas .

officially ended the work at Singapore Expo Hall 6 (:
took quite a few pics.
shall upload it when im at my place
donte have my handphone cable with me now.
it was fun working there.
thank you peeps who made my day.

i went super uber moody after work.
got into those very very blue mood ):
didnt felt like replying any text which i recieved.
just read and deleted it off from my phone.
didnt know what's wrong with me anyway.
just didnt felt like bothering about all those irritating stuffs.

read a blog which totally spoilt my friday morning.
angry ? sad ? upset ?
idk much also .
just didnt felt much like bothering .
im so fucking confused by my emotions.
just felt fucked up ):

anw.
donte feel like blogging much alrd.
will be back asap once im back to my normal self.

ps : pardon me for the usage of vulgarities in this post.

2009-06-19T03:01:00.000+08:00

im back.
like finally ?
LOLs .
been working at Singapore Expo Hall 6
from 16 - 19th june.
which means today is the last day.
haas.

working for the fair
CommunicAsia ; BroadcastAsia ; EnterpriseIT && CGOverdrive 2009.
Entry is only allowed for trade related vistors.
they even have this STANDARD dress code.
no bermudas, no flip flops, no slippers , no shorts ...
so end up quite a few people got asked home to change.
haas.
and i'm always dressed in full black.
black long sleeve top.
either skirt or pants for bottoms.
(:

well .
boring as it seems.
but i got to know a few fun peeps (:
haas.
anw.
i got my tongue piercing seasoned
*like finally ?*
haas.
changing into barbells soon ?
haas

anw ...
i guess i might need to go MIA soon.
need sometime alone.
to sort out what i want in life
in relationship.
confused.

sometimes ,
when its dark in the night,
i feel like crying when i think of you.
idk whether i still wanna continue waiting.
i donte wanna give up halfway.
and regret in the later part.
can anyone teach me ?
is there anyway where i can get things right this time ?
i donte wanna do things to waste time.

2009-06-12T02:29:00.000+08:00

hi peeps !
im back finally.
with some photos which were supposed to be uploaded

anw,
went phuture last night <100609>
with yihui , ah biah, yi kai and mouse & my sis.
kena chop like cabbage head by the cab driver
SHB 9293 G , SMART CAB, PREMIER .
fuck
ownself willing to fetch 5 person.
den charge extra 3 bucks
WTF .
den SMART company de supervisor still can shout at me
WTF luhs.
i defintely will bring this incident up to CASE && LTA.
this is touting.

anw.
i just cut my fringe recently.
fugging ugly ):
go out keep have to clip up ):
but still alr when i clip ?
my sis say look cuter (:

might be going drinking tml night
with jason leong
lols.
idk he wanna club or wadever shit lahs.
SIANS ...

when i'm at Martin Entertainment

at the hospital while waiting to see doctor

nights out at phuture <100609>

me and sis while on train to tiong bahru

cam-whoring on train

be mine , boy ♥

sisters on the move !

♥ i will always wait for you

cam-whoring

in T1 's toilet

after cutting my fringe

before i cut my fringe

trying out a pair of shades @ T1

iloveyou , boy ♥

2009-06-08T10:29:00.000+08:00

乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久

我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘却向着
相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活

oh baby~
你答应我的我都记乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久

我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘却向着
相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活

oh baby~
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我也别再哭了

但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我也别再哭了

海鸣威 & 泳儿-你的承诺

a very nice song which i wanna share here.
thanks to WK* for introducing this song to me.
although there is a story behind this song.
but i still love it alot.
thanks WK*

anw.
i feel that the distance between us has been closer since tht incident.
went drinking with kai, theresa and chanel at boat quay on friday night [050609]
had a great time except for some spoiling events.
shall not mention it.

saturday night [060609]
went drinking at punggol marina with kai , siong wei and cheeming :D
after that alot of other people came :D
[ps ars. idk the names :X]
when the pub closed.
they wanted to go highland centre de lan shop play L4D.
but kai sacrificed.
he accompanied me and theresa to hougang block 401 to eat !
we talked and ate :D
felt really happy.
i wanna know more about you.♥

im official out of KBox as of 28 may 2009.
well.
at least i got something off my load.
im starting a new job later in the evening at ASTONS.
hopefully i will be able to get used to it ba.
its a part time job anw.
im going to a briefing at Kelly Services @ TPY HDB hub tml.
LOLS
im like a rubbish bin.
any job just take only. :X

ok peepos !
i got to go le .
need catch some rest first .
if not later will DIE ! :X

2009-06-04T13:11:00.000+08:00

hi bitches and asses :D
im back to my DEAD blog again (:
happy to see me ?
haas.
recently am into this new thing called PLURKING.
its fun.
everyone should just join in (:

well.
im still not asleep.
cause im going for my medical appointment which is scheduled at 2pm for blood test.
3 pm will be the exact time to meet the doctor.
"i made it sound as though meet the parents =/"
haas.
well.
there is a pig lying behind of me
say wanna accompany me go see doc
end up sleeping there.
WTH luhs.

anyway.
just a short update only.
will be back for more next time :D

2009-06-01T08:13:00.000+08:00

hi peeps !
here are the overdued photos from my chalet =P
haas.
from my presents to funny pics.
lols !

anyway,
im still short of some photos =P
haas
anw,
take a good look at th pic where a ghost appeared !
i got trashed till tht extend
and all thanks to 3 persons :
Mr Egbert, Mr Raymond and of course MISS THERESA (:
wahahahas =)
good job.
but i shall return it all to you MISS THERESA :D
another 7 more months (: heh
just wait and see.
alr .
gtg
IE's lagging D:
shag.

2009-05-29T09:45:00.000+08:00

YO BITCHESAND DUDES !
im back !
missing me rights ?
loves loves ♥

anyway.
been missing updates ):
no time uhs .
sorry peepos !
will update my chalet's photo up real soon !
i missed th birthday bash !
thank you THERESA TEO (:
my dearest twin (:
heh.

anyway.
thanks to those who came
those who didnt came
those who text me
those who called me
those who surprised me
those who BASH-ED me.
heh ♥

p.s :to my evil twin
be prepared for you 18th birthday !
heh heh .
i will make sure i give you thrice of what you gave me !
thank you evil twin (:
♥ you lots

2009-05-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

YUHOOOOOOOOOO !
i'm BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK (=
finally luhs
couldnt get online for so many days ~

i'm dying my hair now uhs !
later going drinking with friends
im super uber late uhs.
haaas.
but never mind eh ?

my chalet details are finalised.
22nd night will only be opened to invited guests !
23rd night will be open to all !
please RSVP ur attendance by sms by this weekend uhs.
i needa confirm the number of pax who is going !
p.s : anyone who is preparing to smash me or anything is welcomed !
just let me change in advance !
thank you peepos
i wanna have a great 18th birthday !

2009-04-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

finally am back to my dead blog =.=
was away for so long cause i'm lazy (=
plus i changed working place to Kallang alrd.
th closing hours is one hour later than Downtown.
and th journey home is about another hour plus.
therefore i didnt update for so long ~
wahahahaas.

anyway.
was on th way home th other day.
accidentally pressed his number.
WOW!
he's BACK in sgp
ahahs.
its like finally luhs.
i've been counting down every single day ~~~
but well...
i still donte seems to be able to get him to look for me automatically ):
but its fine (:
as long as i'm able to know how he's doing im alr alrd (:

i brought my laptop to my workplace.
onlined and eat at th same time.
Kallang aint a bad place afterall.
people here are treating me well.
at least (:
anyway.
i'm going to post my chalet details up soon.
peepos please read !
and text me asap to confirm your attendance ! (:
love ya all !

p.s: JH, i know everything needs time.
i wonte force you or rush you anymore.
let this period be a test for th feelings tht i have for you.
i'm still waiting for th day tht you say you will return to me (:

2009-04-05T05:25:00.000+08:00

backkk ~
ended work SUPER UBER late today ):
gotten my pay.
super disappointed as usual.
deductions due to MCs from th fall. ):

anyway ...
there's this 3customer who brought OUTSIDE LIQOUR in !
wtf luhs
and our supervisor is so damn fking kind to them lahhs.
ask them open pay for a bottle of martell only.
wtf !
so kind to them.
they vomited like nobody's business luhs ~
den we have to clear th mess they make in th room !~

rarrrr .
never mind abt it anymore.
its OVER (:
im so fking tired now.
but still forced myself here to blog.
cause i wanna blog about him !
another 7 more days and you will be BACK !
finally ~weee eeee

my damn eyes are so gonna shut anytime.
and i alrd did my best by wearing specs.
still ,
it wanna shut down le ):
so fking tired .
i miss tht night at your place.
cause im able to hug you to sleep
and sleep comfortably in your arms.
but now,
im only able to hug your jacket to sleep.
in search of th sense of security tht you gave me (:

2009-04-03T05:33:00.001+08:00

heyoooo !!!!!~
i'm back once again ~ =p

you are now at hongkong,
hopefully you are enjoying over there (:
i can't believe it last night when my phone rang.
you TEXTED me ~
im so so so HAPPY luhs ~
weee
although ppl ask me not to hold high hopes
but im still waiting for your return.
you said that you bought my letters along.
i hope you will read it according to th dates.
im having th insomina spells again ):
im hugging your jacket every single night

please !
take good care of yourself while you are at there.
i donte wanna hear you fall sick anymore.
its HURTING me deeply.
im blaming myself for not being able to take care of you while you are sick
can i take care of you?
i mean forever
for real.

i'm stupid aint i?
im hoping th letters will move you and make you reconsider.
reconsider about our r/s.
i believe that 爱情与记忆一样，能遗失也能寻回.
isnt it ?
i really wanna find back th lost feelings.
i donte wante a patch.
i wanna start AFRESH with you.
i donte wanna patch back cause th feeling will be different.
i wanna start afresh.
i wante to forget every single thing tht took place.
and start everything from th scratch again !

i spent my off day thinking about you.
playing pool at yishun safra with papa & cong & sis.
quite meaningful ?
haas.
well.
at least i won sis.
didnt really have a game with cong.
lost to papa ):
nvm luhs ~

drank quite abit at home with sis & cong.
not tipsy at ALL !
arghh.
i thought of drinking to sleep.
i guess im missing my gastro appointment later on.
eeeek.
donte wanna go see them when i drank ):
later problem alot de (:

2009-04-01T04:14:00.001+08:00

am back to blogging.
its HAPPY APRIL FOOL's DAY (:
and you are leaving in another day ):
im still counting th days sadly .
you will be out of town for 10 fking days .
although you totally never contact me alrd,
but im still hoping things might change for th better some day.

just finish eating.
was so so so hungry ):
cause i had th runs while at work.
guess was due to eating super uber cold food ):
was washing stuffs in bar while ppl bought my food for me.
and hence eating it COLD !
well ...
and then i had th runs,
and then im hungry when i reach home ):

well,
i guess someone just donte understand what i meant by
"we are two person of two different world."
wanna be frens with you,
you donte treasure !
and hence,
i've made up my mind.
i shall not be so good to you anymore.
you donte FUCKING worth me being good to you anyway.
everytime show me your fucking attitude.
think i your dog arrs ?
WTF.

if god can really hear what im saying.
i hope he will bless you with a safe journey to hongkong.
i wante you to be safe and sound in whatever you do.
i wante you to have the best of everything.
im even alr with givng up for what i have in exchange for your safety.
it might sound stupid to you.
but im serious about this.
知道吗你对我多重要!
you are really very important to me.
even though i was th one who initated th breakup
i fucking regretted it.
but i know time can never turn back.
so i'm only able to regret and feel regretful alone.

this song is very meaningful to me
shall post th lyrics here:
杨丞琳-在你怀里的微笑

可以吗让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱得快要疯掉
知道吗你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱
爱随着风飘荡飘过了你嘴角
飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡哪里也逃不了

我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道
再也闻不到
我只要你喊我一次就好
从前亲昵的暗号
多想再次亲耳听到

让我暂时的依靠
那是短暂止痛药
很快会失效
你只要再哄我一次就好
让我可以很骄傲
记住我拥有过的好
记住在你怀里微笑

2009-03-29T09:48:00.001+08:00

warning !
th following content might make you guys laugh or cry.
adult supervision is required (:

it might sound stupid .
i cried at my workplace on 27th night.
i didnt had enough sleep th night before.
and i was feeling so fucked up at work
due to customers
i kept silent all th way.
i thought about you.
out of a sudden,
you came back into my mind.

it was a busy night tht day.
all rooms were filled
no exception for k3.
it looks as though its fate.
k3's customer kept looking for me.
asking me to take photos for them.
bringing a lost lady back to their room.
settling their bill and sorts.
i was reminded of you whenever i walked by.
therefore i always avoided tht route as frequent as possible.
as much as needed, i wonte appear at tht route for nothing.
tht night was really an exception.

after taking photos for them,
i felt so down.
i went into th ladies .
but tears just wouldnt come out.
i thought i would be fine
and thus i went back to work.
but when i was back at my service counter.
tears started to flow.
jingfang came and saw me crying.
she thought tht i was just plain tired at th startin till she saw me sobbing.
she comforted me.
but i just kept crying.

after awhile,
i wiped my tears thinking that i've cried my share.
a moment later .
i went to th staircase where we used to smoke at before i start work
& i begin crying again !
well.
after smoking two sticks of cig
i went back thinking everything is over.
but when i went to ask for permission to smoke .
and ann lee asked me th reason for me being so silent th whole night.
i fucking CRIED again.
WTF was i thinking ?
i couldnt figure out whye i kept crying till i saw th time and date.
it was 26 mins to 28th march 2009.
maybe you might have alrd forgotten th meaning of this date.
but i still remember it so clearly.

it was supposed to be our first month tgt
but everything just ended.
i guess you may be leading a better life now.
you are going on a holiday to hongkong soon.
and im praying tht you will have a safe journey and enjoy it.
it sounds silly.
but i know im gonna need some time to get over you.
i finally realised something.
maybe what we've got for each other was just crush in th begining.
but i treated this relationship so seriously tht i begin to have feelings for you
as for you, when th feeling faded ,
you chose to avoid and run away.
but i would understand.
thanks for everything tht you have given to me.
those are things which other couldn't provide.
you have given me stuffs which couldn't be bought outside
and taught me lessons tht couldn't be found in school.
thanks (:

anyway,
just a quick flash of my life recently,
i've been working non stop like a workaholic.
madness aint it ?
anyway
th whole night shift am left with only one female server .=/
and tht's me =/
xue er alrd resign and went off.
and thus leaving me alone ):
anyway,
a customer gave me his bottle of 12yrs CHIVAS REGAL SCOTCH WHISKY ~
wee ~

2009-03-25T06:29:00.003+08:00

its my OFF DAY :D
haas.
actually w/o this off day im still fine.
cause i just returned to work not long (:

hmms.
shall be meeting didi @ 2pm later on.
to discuss about chalet
but im v tired lleahs.
donte know i wanna go anot.
haas.
got ppl jio me at night go rounding lohhs !
haas.

anyway .
i've been reading posts.
im sad to see what was being posted onto tht particular blog.
i'm still missing you.
i guess you donte even know about it.
i've been controlling my tears.
not allowing it to flow.
because i once promised you tht i wonte cry so easily anymore.
every single song
every single place
every single minute
everytime when i walked past tht room {K3}
its you who's on my mind
my bloody fking mind just cant get over you D:
i just donte know what is it .
i just cant forget you.

everything around me seems to be reminding me of you
the bus journey on bus 3 when you send me to work.
th macDonald's at tampines mall and tampines interchange
when we used to meet each other.
th bus stop opposite of tampines stadium tht i once waited for you
in hope to surprise you when you alight from bus
ending up with th mistake tht i thought you took bus 34
th room where i first know you
"K3"
-you were with 8 other friends of yours for dinner.
-i remembered checking your ic when you asked me where's th smoking room
-i remembered saying sorry after checking
-i remembered how you asked for my number.
-i remembered you saying tht you took my number cause you felt tht i was stupid
i remembered how i spent my off day with you at The Cage watching you playing soccer.
i remembered how i accompanied you and your mates to kallang leisure park
when we hang arounded there till 8pm in th night.
and then going to your place staying overnight
and you had high fever.
i remembered tht i woke up every 10mins staring at you.
i remembered tht you text me saying you saw me looking at you everytime you opened your eyes.
i remembered every single thing tht took place to bring me to you
th golden village at tampines mall where we watched our first movie
"K20: The legend of the mask"
th cathay cinema at E!Hub where we watched our second movie
"The curious case of benjamin button"
th third movie tht we watch at golden village
"Suspect X"
th heart shapes tht you fold using th bus tickets.
everything just seems to remind me of you on purpose!

till now
im still thinking.
why didnt you visit me a single time when i suffered th fall.
whye.
during tht period of time.
no matter how others comforted me
i still couldnt be put in ease.
all i needed was just you without saying anythin
just accompany me by my side.
or just you calling me to tell me "donte worry"
that's all i needed.
but all you just said was
"i'm still working you know?"
"i'm tired"

i understand tht it would be inconvinent for you to go home at tht hour.
but was it so diffcult for you to just drop me a call ?
was it just so hard ?
如果我的生命即将结束，我最大的后悔就是为何不能与你一直到最后。
that would be th biggest regret for me.
i wanted to last with you.
i wanted to make you my last
but everything just ended.
it's been 8 days since you last called or text me.
is it really ending forever between you and me?
im sad.

my spinal injury aint getting any better i guess.
it still hurts this much when i bent down.
i still cant carry heavy objects.
i cant kick things hardly like th past
i miss those times
can i go back to th past .
i would rather live in my past.
and enjoy days which have you by my side.
and days before i fell down in KBox ):

2009-03-19T02:05:00.000+08:00

everything seems to end in such a nice way uh ?
everything ended in this manner that it seems like my fault again ):
maybe im just not a good galf .
not fit and donte deserve to have a good relationship.
or maybe everything just isnt right yet .
i should just stay single for th time being.

anyway.
its time for me to move on in life .
i should look for better things to do instead of crying and weeping yea ?
i've really learnt alot from th past FAILED relationship.
i shall just stay single and be like before
th cheerful me should just be back !
no this ugly and mean me (:

am recovering well from th fall.
thanks to those who took care of me.
am returning to work on this friday.
really looking foward to it (:
i miss th fun and laughter there.
at least it brightens me up !
thanks to KBox DTE staffs (:
u guys are a bunch of nice ppl to hang out with !

anyway.
im officially back to my singlehood.
might not consider getting into any relationship for the time being.
need a break from everything (:
friends are still th best for me !

.p.s :
jingfang, belinda
thanks for listening to me nag !
hahas.
im like an old hag who nag nag nag .
anyway.
there are still lot more ppl out there whom i wanna thank.
thanks peepo(s) !

2009-03-18T01:53:00.000+08:00

to my beloved honey baybee :
maybe i shouldnt be calling u this anymore.
i was the one who initated this breakup.
confusing isn't it ?
♥ 或许我们都太年轻，把爱梦的太完美。也或许我们都把爱想的太简单。如果我们一开始都对爱坦白，对爱珍惜，那么，我们是否会伤的那么深？又或许一开始如果我们都不去伤害爱，它应该也不会伤害我们吧？♥
is this true enough ?
i've seen through alot of things alr .
i know it aint possible for us to be back together once more.
but still .
i love you lots .
this relationship has brought me alot of sweet memories.
it hasn't brought me any hurt
in a r/s ,
when they break up.
there will be a party who brings th tear away,
th other party who brings the smile away.
i choosen to bring th tears away cause i donte wanna see u sad.
jiayou in life ok ?
u are someone with great future.
just donte take th route u took in th past
u are still my love , my honey baybee ♥

2009-03-15T02:32:00.000+08:00

just came back from th hospital not long ago
had a fall at workplace.
just slipped and fell at th nihon mura de kitchen there.
just couldnt move and all.
quan carried me to room 35 for me to rest.
cause it aint a good sight for me to lie on th floor while there is customers.
aint it ?

got xue er to call baybee at th very first min.
but a sad thing
he's working.
& as expected .
i cried like shit and hell.
cause its SUPER UBER PAINFUL when i move
WTF can ...
i informed mom and papa
was sent into th hospital by AMBULANCE
SIA SWAY ~
cause i couldnt even walk.
that's a big problem .
so the paramedics came up with the strecher ...
and i got sent down by tht to th hospital

after one whole lot of checkups and everything
went for XRAY.
there's a small fracture on the end of my spinal.
well.
i must feel lucky that it aint a serious fracture i reckon.
thank god.

gotten 5 days MC and a few stupid medications.
i needa rely on cructhes to walk now.
i cant sit for long..
it hurts. =/
im sad

2009-03-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

back to blog !
went to IT fair just now.
took UPL for work .
wasnt able to attend work cause of some problems.
after settling my problems ,
went to IT fair to look for baybee ♥ & belinda (:

waited for baybee ♥ to off work.
he finished work ard 9.
den i waited for hm around like 20 mins before he is done reporting .
den he sent me back to tampines.
but he got angry ):
cause he tired le i still let him accompany me back till tamp.
sorry baybee ♥ love.

well .
damn tired now.
feel like sleeping le.
tml will be working from 7-3am .
SHAG !!!
alright .
time for some song lyrics !

{♥I remember like it was yesterday
First kiss and I knew you changed the game
You have me, exactly, well you want it,
And I'm on it
And I ain't ever gonna let you get away
Holdin' hands never made me feel this way
So special, boy it's your, it's your smile
We so in love
La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your
La la la la la
Yeah
we so in love, love
I want you to know
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
Been a minute and we still holding it down
Butterflies every time you come around
You make me, so crazyIt's crazy, oh baby
And I don't ever wanna be with no one else
You're the only one that ever made me melt
You're special, boy it's your, your style
We so in love
La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your
La la la la la
Yeah it's all I'm thinking of
LoveI want you to know
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
Everything, everything, oooEverything, everything, ooo
[Will.I.Am]
You're my always and forever
You're my sunshine
On my mind, constant
Think about you all the time
You're my everything
Everything, everything, ooo
Everything, everything, ooo
[Will.I.Am]You my new school (love)
You my old school (love)
And it's so true
You're the one I'm thinking of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up (Oh boy, oh boy)
(You make the sun come up on a cloudy day
You're my number one, you're my special thing)
You're my every, every, every, everything
Everything, everything, ooo
Everything, everything, ooo
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love
Everything, everything, ooo
Everything, everything, ooo
You're my everything
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love♥}

this song lyrics is specially for my baybee ♥ love (:
nights sweetheart honey baybee ♥

2009-03-07T05:07:00.000+08:00

im having insomina
serious insomina :(
honey baybee is SLEEPING.
he's still aint feeling well.
wondering when then i can meet him ):
its been ard 72 hours since i last saw him.
miss him lots ):

back from work at around 4am i guess.
got a complain ):
regular customer says im RUDE when i did follow th standard operation.
WTF !!!!!
well .
aint gonna harp on it anymore !
ARGH.
got a cut on my index finger .
th stupid tiger jug was broken and i didnt realise .
WTF .
ARGHHHHH .

ermm .
bee never update blog lohhs !
wth.
bluff me ):
never mind
shant harp on it ....
never mind.
ask me text or call him.
end up he sleeping.
well ...
never mind .
he's nt well.

2009-03-06T03:45:00.000+08:00

BACKKKKK TO BLOGG !
just got back from work not long ago.
just hang up th phone call with baybee .
he's still sick ):
but m glad tht he made a trip to th clinic to visit th doctor.
hopefully he will recover real soon !
i simply missssssssssssss him alot !
its been quite a couple of hours since i last saw him.
wondering did he eat his dinner and so on ...

well ...
work aint tht bad today.
we'll be starting Dinner Bento Set as of tomorrow {060309}
we've stopped th Dinner Buffet as of {010309}
what a waste ):
no more FREE dinner from Nihon Mura ):
well ...
it might be a good thing though (:
im able to SLIM DOWN =)
hahas (:

recieved my pay cheque
SO SO SO DISAPPOINTED.
only got $600++ only.
cause i've got 3MCs , 3 UPLs.
enough to let me DIE le.
SOBs SOBs .
how am i going to SURVIVE !!!!
RARRRRRRHHHHHH ):

bee wantes me to change job.
he donte like me to work in th nightlife .
im actually considering it too .
cause im abit worn out le .
tired of nightlife.
very no life =)
cant mee up with baybee and all ...
its a sad thing. ):

ever since i've gotten over you , i realise that there are much better choices out there for me.
i've seen through alot of stuffs that i wasnt able to when i was with you.
i guessed i've matured pretty much after leaving you.
and i guessed u've lost pretty much after me ?
well ..
its a both lose situation in th end.
seeing that u still cant get over th fact that we were once ex-lovers,
i feel so sorry actually ...
cause i think u are even more childsh then me .
thanks for teaching me how to cherish and treasure.
i sure do cherish and treasure my current baybee now.
he sure am worth this title more than u do.
thanks anyway for th 4 months of sweet & bitter memories.
all i ever wanted will be my baybee from now onwards.
no one will be as important as he is in my life. ♥ ♥ ♥

{♥ 0345am}

2009-03-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

finally m back to postin after so many days =X
hahas.
realised my blog is dead .

went to th cage with bee and his frens ystd .
quite fun(:
saw them playing soccer .
bee very fierce when playing lohhs.
never give chance de .
ahahas.

after that we went to KALLANG LEISURE PARK .
hanged ard there till 8 plus.
den went over to bee's place till this morning .
came home and slept till 2 plus in th afternoon.
bee is having a fever now ...
hopefully he will be alright ):
bee !
take care of urself !!!!
bee will be sad de !

2009-02-21T07:15:00.000+08:00

hihi (:
finally back to blogging after so many many many DAYS.
i MISS YOU PEEPO(S)!
MUACKS to you guys for still visiting my blog although its dead. =X

hahas
donte know whether wanna be happy or be sad .
i finally made it clear with wei.
sorry wei.
i really did once love you.
but if u are going to ask me go back to u now.
its impossible.
sorry.
like what i say.
when my heart is ready ...
i will let u noe.

damn feel like vomiting now =/
gastric acting up again.
missed my GASTRO's appointment again.
must fast fast go see doc le.
my life is only filled with work recently.
gotten two days MC.
sorry captains.
but im really not feeling well.

2009-02-05T08:53:00.000+08:00

back to my precious BLOG (: *finally*
wee !
my life is in a topsy turvy manner now ):
ppl sleep, i work.
ppl work, i sleep :(
jitao no LIFE ....

well ....
CNY is over
angbao sessions might end soon.
no time to go bai nian also ):
wth lohhs ....
hahas.
anw...
nearly got into police lockup just a few hours ago.
shant elaborate so much.
LAZY is th reason =X
wahahahas.
but m glad tht nothing happened to me.
but gotta pray hard for kok.
he might get charged =X

didnt realise that im so hyper till just now.
reached home in a very very sleepy manner.
but th moment i lied on my bed.
i CANNOT fall asleep.
WTF is happening to my body ):
topsy-turvy as mentioned ?
well ...
i guess so.
i missed two health appointments.
to be exact.
its three.
lazy to change the appointment date .
So FKING lazy...
just couldnt find th reason why i should change.
someone.
give me a reason please !

i realised when humans start to grow old.
they really think damn hard for their future.
but sad to say.
some HUMANS just can't get their fucking brain working in the proper direction.
to those idoitic humans out there.
fucking get a life .
no matter how hard life is going to hit u at.
u still got to move on.
th earth donte stop spinning because you are sad.
th sun wonte stop rising because of you.
you will realise that actually alot of things u thought is because of your mind.
work hard asses.
donte be a bootlicker SUCK COCK asses
although its needed at times.
but dont potray it all th time.
BOOTLICKER

if this post has offended you guys.
im sorry .
but cause i really cant take it anymore.
i just got to RANT it out here .
thanks for listening to this grumble.
(:

2009-01-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

finally am back to blogging.
after 5 days of working ...
i still love my work :D
DTE E!Hub KBOX
yeaps ...
im working in KBOX :D

its gonna be Lunar New Year in another few hours time.
hopefully after this few hours ...
everything will turn out fine for me (:
hehe.
recieved a call from lina jie jie one particular morning.
asking me to remove some links from my blog.
i read your blog.
you scolded me a slut and fucking slut yea ?
im alright with it.
anyway ...
what's over is over.
you are th one who cant let it go.
just admit it dude.
CHILDISH .

well ...
i've got a new nick name.
PIGLET.
was like ... WTH ...
hahas.
cause in th night shift group ...
we've got
-Tazmania
-Donald Duck
-Winnie The Pooh
-Tigger
-Tweety Bird
-Slyvester
and so im Piglet :D :D
wahahas.
shall blog some other time.
am tired ):
*yawns*

2009-01-19T04:40:00.000+08:00

backk to posting finally.
im currently in a lan shop @ pasir ris .
guess im going home soon.
im missing my bed soooo much.
haven been blogging cause alot of things happened.

finally settled my JAE stuffs .
hopefully i'll be able to get in (:
*PRAYS HARD*
new year is around th corner.
hopefully this new year will be a good one.
*i do hope so* ):

on th 16th of jan,
around 2pm.
my mommy called me while i was at th mrt station preparing to go down to dhoby ghaut.
mommy: mei ar, this few days don'te anyhow run le. you want also cannot.
me:whye ?!
mommy:whampo ah gong passed away already.
me: when ?!
mommy:yesterday afternoon.
me: OMG. den whye now den say?!
mommy: yesterday we not even in sgp. how ppl tell us .
me: orh. i noe le.
mommy: be home early tonight. might be gg down to funeral.
me:okays.
well ..
whampo ah gong really dote on me alot.
i remember when i was a child ,
he used to keep giving me extra money whenever i visited him ):
arghhh .
im not sad cause no one will be giving me money anymore.
just tht i cant accept th fact tht another person who dote on me has left.
RIP please, ah gong.
*fyi : whampo ah gong is my grandfather's younger brother*

it was supposed to be joyous for me tht week.
my cousin, ah ling jie jie aka alice got married.
but my ah gong passed away ):
well....
no point harping on it.
he wonte be back anyway.
i can only wish for him to rest in peace.
shall end my post here.
super uber tired.
ah gong will be cremated later on @ Mandai Crematorium hall.
tht place which i HATE alot
it brings back alot of memories ):

2009-01-15T11:32:00.000+08:00

back to posting finally.
been missing for like 2 days lohhs ):
didn't have th time to blogg.
sis have been hoggin th stupid laptop to do her project.
whereas i've been running to poly after poly.
to attend th course counselling (:

im some wad disappointed by th results.
utterly disappointed man. ):
got a result which was worse than last year.
fugging hell. ):
really felt like appealing to remark for my paper.
but tht will cost me alot lohhs .
): sadden.
nvm ...
just pray hard tht i can get into NP's chnese media and communication course can le.
peeps !
pray for me please !~

there was somewad a quarrel between me and him.
arrrghhh .
didn't know what im doing.
just felt like being alone.
get so irritated by everything tht is being given to me
so sick and tired.
might sound like im grumbling
wahahahas.
but feel more like im RANTING ~~~~~~

2009-01-12T04:21:00.001+08:00

kEviN`- sianx.. vonn here i cannot sleep ar!! add me in msn at j_pop***@hotmail.com or call me at 9165**** kaes!! ^^

there's this idoit who post this is MRIC using my name.
fucking idoit .
u better donte let me know who u are.
i will file a police report very soon.
im guessing its u mr KAL***.
own up if u got balls
if not please donte release my number anyhow.
i will try means and ways to get your ip address no matter how hard.
u FUCKING idoit.
im trying to sleep while someone from MRIC sms me.
WTF .
but thanks arrs.
if u wanna be an idoit and continue giving ppl my number .
go ahead.
i make sure i make life hell for u.
if u going to own up by ur own
i can consider not making life hell for u
if im gg to dig out by my own
i make sure u FUCKING suffer

2009-01-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

just read JiaYi's blog.
realised tht i've been missing out in his life details for like 2 months and 25 days le.
time really flies yeah ?
it feels as though i've grown up alot ,
seen alot of things in life .
learnt alot too .

just learnt tht they broke up .
feeling sad .
idk whye.
i just feel sad.
his post donte sound like th old him anymore.
th old him was so confident.
so cheerful.
it seems as though he suffered a real blow due to this relationship.

idk how i can help.
i really donte wanna see him being so depressed
its not tht im not over with him ...
but i really donte wanna see someone who i really once loved to be in this state.
some says its karma for him to do tht to me.
but i think otherwise.
idk wad happened to them
therefore im not in th best position to comment.
but i really can sense tht he really loved her alot.
i can sens tht he really lost his centre of gravity for life after losing her.

jia ,
idk whether u will be reading up my blog anot.
but wadever i wrote here is true.
i hope u will be strong enough.
tide through this
she will return to u eventually is u guys are fated to be tgt .
im not trying to be sarcastic or wad.
but im trying to tell u .
to get her back.
u must stay strong.
donte allow urself to give up on urself.
only by this way,
she will be touched n moved by u.
jiayou.
u are someone with great future.
donte let little obstacle become th main thing which ruin u.
jiayou.
i have trust and faith in u tht u will succeed in getting her back.
feel free to contact me.
i will be glad to lend u my ears

2009-01-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

finally back to posting .
celebrated THERESA's birthday for her in advance on 10th .
hope she did really enjoyed altho it was very last minute.
and there was something which really spoiled th atmosphere .
but well ...
its over.

yesterday went to sentosa to celebrate XMM's birthday.
met up with bridget & nianyong @ tampines mrt station at 1 pm luhs.
went to giant.
had our lunch there &&&&
started our shopping trip.
walked around ....
den realised we forgotten to take trolley :/
never mind.
walked back to take trolley @ th entrance there.
den we went to took soft drinks.
bought th new year value pack.
consisted of 3 bottles of 1.5 litres de drink.
2 bottles of coke , 1 bottle of F&N orange juice *yummy*
walked further down to th baking needs side.
took 3 packs of flour. WAHAHAHAHA.
den went to take 2 bottles of thousand island sauce , one bottle of dark soya sauce.
&&& a tray of eggs *30 pieces norrhs*
den bought plastic cups tooo (:

den we went to pasir ris white sands.
WEE !~
bought XMM a Choco Delight Cake from bengawan solo.
was so fugging worried tht the cake might melt.
took 17 small candles & 1 big candle.
th auntie abit ah hai sehhs ...
give th wrong candle de stick :(
nvm ...
proceeded to pasir ris park .
sat at pit 23 there (: *memories flowed back*
after tht XMM and kokwei arrived (:
wahahaha.
me bridget n nianyong actually each person took two plastic cups with flour and poured on XMM !
hahas.
den i throwed eggs @ XMM followed by nianyong.
WAHAHAAs.
after something which took place ...
we [eddie,kokwei,jiawei,bridget,nianyong and me] actually decided to have our dinner at white sands den go Sentosa Palawan Beach.

after arriving at sentosa's beach station taxi stand .
we walked straight to palawan beach.
found a place near th toliet .
settled down and straight away went to SWIM (:
had a hard time getting th whole group down into th sea.
we splashed sea water around .
hahas.
after tht went up for smoking break.
i immediately went to take the flour out cause XMM was squatting down at a spot near us.
hahas.
and th party started lohhs.
we poured flour , throwed eggs , poured coke and orange juice on her.
last but not least.
BLACK soya sauce.
tht's whye she beacame like tht in th pic.

cool rites ?
look like an anime character & a female ghost .
we learned science surprisingly.
if u have a raw egg , u pour coke or f&n orange on it,
it will be cooked !
LMAO ! (:
so ended up she had cooked eggs on her hair !!!!!!!!
hahahas.
brought her to wash away th sauces .
maked her wear back her bikini after i washed for her ....
then we continued to talk cock and swim around ...

around 1145 like tht i prepare to take th cake out already.

so we actually maake her stand a distance away from us while we put th candles all tht.

forgotten to take a photo of how th cake look like ):

nvm .... anyway ....

sang birthday song for her .

as usual ....

made her bite out every single candle from th cake !

the candles were in a circle around th whole cake lohhs !!!!!!!

after she cut th cake ,

i actually made everyone bite on th cake before i feed her again.

once she bite only ...

i jitao smash tht piece onto her again .

hahas.

after tht i cut another piece to smash her again.

she jitao clean from her face and smash me ! WTH .....

lols lahhs ....

den i just use th remainin cake to smash on her with the help of bridget !

hahas.

before she finally go bath ...

i chased her with two bottles of thousand island dressing :/

hahahas.

well ....

after everything ...

we slacked around th coffee bean there for awhile.

and we actually WALKED all th way from sentosa to vivo.

hahas.

anyway ...

im tired. *yawns*

shall blog next time.

nites (:

2009-01-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

yeahs !
finally got to discuss some of my birthday celebration details with didi le.
abit crazy lahhs.
but we gg t book chalet .
most probably will be costa sand pasir ris .
hahas.
3 days 2 nights.
from 22-24th may.
still long worrs !
hahas.

we abit crazy lahhs .
we already start to anticipate wad will happen le.
guess i must not let them buy extra cakes .
hahahas !
later they buy extra cake only means me and didi goner lohhs.
didi .
must FORBID them to buy extra de.
hehe

2009-01-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

backk to blogg ...
super tired ):
arghhhh .
aint feeling well ):
wished tht YOU were with me now.
really .
anw ...
shall not harp on it anymore.

just read J****'s blog.
realised so much have took place.
called his mummy .
at first i called his house
den he picked up.
OMFG ,
he cant recognise my voice anymore.
am i really that insignificant to YOU ?
WTF . its only 2 months plus.
WTF WTF WTF .
no need like this de right.
at least put me in one corner of ur memories.
no need to like DUMP ME AWAY.
WTF .who am i to YOU seriously ? :(

had this bad mood swing yesterday afternoon .
met up with baby at his place.
den fetched XMM from her school.
while waiting for her ,
i actually voimted outside her school lohhs.
i guessed i voimted my gastric juice out.
i actually was smsing YOU while i vomit can :/
den i told YOU .
den YOU were like ...
DOTS lahs .
hahas.

YOU were like worried for me lahhs.
YOU keep scolding me saying i never take care of myself .
:/ i got lohhs ):
is i donte know what happen only.
after i vomit.
my whole mood like very low.
cause YOU said i never take care of myself.
i very sad can ? :(

a few times,
i really donte know what i want with myself.
it seems so complicated.
it seems so disturbing.
sometimes,
i cant see myself in my own future.
it seems so complicating.
it seems so wrong .
everything i've done seems wrong.
im a coward.
i donte dare to face up to my own problems.
i chose to hide from it.
please forgive me